Ronyo

Ronyo Jun 2013

21.

If only I had the courage
to dig my nails so deep into my skin
that I can feel the flaws of my bones.

If only I had the courage
to dig my nails so deep into my chest
that I can hold the rhythm of my heart.

If only I had the courage
to dig my nails so deep into my skin
that I won’t end up ripping my skin apart.

Ronyo Mar 2013

20

but once again I must reminisce
       on how sadness tugs me at the core harshly
       on how happiness only gets me partially
       on how my heartbeats are so unsteady
       on how I want my miracles to ******* happen already
I’m tired
                 of drowning everything with gin
I'm sick
                 of always letting this sadness win

Just trying to resurface old, sad poems. Haha

Ronyo Jan 2013

19

i’m so so so sad and nobody really cares
i’ve been really trying hard, i ******* swear
been trying so hard to be content and stable
but these feelings I honestly can’t disable
nobody understands this downwards spiral pull
the feelings i’ve suppressed are now entirely full
incredibly full and just ready to burst
to be honest, i’m already expecting the worst
it’s not the fear of becoming dead
oh no, it’s not living the life instead

Ronyo Dec 2012

18.

when you
can’t express
it out into
words
so you
just end up
transforming
them into
tears

instead

Ronyo Nov 2012

17.

I practiced turning blood into ink
Safer to bleed on the page
instead of down the sink

Ronyo Nov 2012

16.

I need fuel for my art, so I feed on a seizure
Exposing a vein is now a private pleasure

why do i keep writing such short pieces
what is wrong with me

Ronyo Nov 2012

15.

How deep do I have
        to reach
How deep do I have
        to cut
How deep do I have
        to realize
that you're not the one