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Apr 2014
Haven't felt like myself
since you swore you don't want me
and ran the other way when I wanted a hundred
But if you did the math...
I only needed half;
I thought we were a 50-50 love affair
I lost myself somewhere in our lie
Maybe I needed time to myself
Told myself not to think about you
Agreed with myself
Told myself it's for the better
I found myself
I'm better by myself
Told myself you won't **** with my head again
I blamed myself
Forgave myself
Lied to myself
I can't help myself
Last night, again it felt like I'm in love by myself
Deathly quiet
I could hear my heart breaking
I had a long talk with myself about you
Myself don't always think like I do
I told myself I would be objective with my views
And as open-minded as my pride would allow
because I'm desperate to know
if you've fought off my love
I'm real with myself
I love myself
I can't do you
if I don't know myself first
I stopped looking for myself
a long time ago
when I could hear myself think
I'm invested in myself
Raising a child by myself
I can do bad by myself. But I won't
And can't nobody push me
to tear myself down
I hadn't felt like myself
since you swore you don't want me
I've seen it myself
Played myself
Told myself not to think about you
Disagreed with myself
Couldn't convince myself
I had a long talk with myself about you
Myself don't always think like I do
I told myself I would be objective with my views
and as open-minded as my pride would allow
because I'm desperate to know
if you've fought off my love
Cuddled up against me
but the elephant in the room
is a very real thing
I won't just let myself accept it
I respect myself
Gotta give myself more credit than that
It was already crowded on this one way
I won't forget
I'm in love by myself
I've embarrassed myself
Felt sorry for myself
I've hated myself
for being too weak
to stand without you
I lost myself somewhere in our lie
I haven't felt like myself
since you swore you don't want me
It's deathly quiet
I could hear my heart breaking
but can't nobody push me
to tear myself down
I can do bad by myself. But I won't
I don't
You ran the other way when I wanted a hundred
but if you did the math...
I only needed half;
I thought we were a 50-50 love affair

Tell me anything...
I BEAST!
derick gibbs
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derick gibbs  brockton, ma
(brockton, ma)   
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