My love for you Can not prosper Without a love for me. What's left in me Is cold and dark And it rests in my heart. It influences my actions It influences my choices And blindly steals my happiness From right in front of me Leaving me hopeless. What have I done To deserve this madness? I've let evil distort my view Of love And I view that evil As a knife That I have turned upon myself
If I have gone crazy That is for you to decide. I give you my wrongs Because I can no longer hide So this is my heartbreak suicide.
I've ****** up With all the women I've met. Either I cheated, lied Or left. Now I am alone and stressed Hurt and depressed Because it's like I ripped my ****** heart Right out of my chest. Yeah, these are My heartbreak suicides And how I've killed myself On the inside. Because love is blind And I've been chasing That blind ******* For some time. With this gaping cavity In my chest Stumbling over lust And wasting time. Losing my ****** mind More and more each time. Love is suppose to be Patient. Love is suppose to be Kind. What they didn't tell us Is that love is Transparent.
When we chase and search It only leaves us more hurt. We fall and refuse to get up And we forget our self worth. Committing atrocities to Feel less hurt. When in reality Each atrocious act Has only set us back.
What do we do? Do we keep up the pursuit? Of something we can only feel And only look through? Or do we wait? Until it unexpectedly drops on us And make our souls shake. I guess I should go with the latter Because I'm tired of feeling Bruised and battered. I've made the choices That have led me here And my heart is shattered From the falls.
I am reaching in And pulling out the fragments. Piecing it back together With no sadness. Praying to God that he never again Let this happen.
Who am I to decide If I've lost my mind. I'm just not accustomed To change and what comes with time. I've set my anger loose on the inside And this is my Heartbreak suicide.
This is my last poem of 2013. I have to begin to look deeper within myself to find my purpose in life and what direction I must take to better myself as a human being. My writings help me achieve that but I must to venture further outside of my box so I can reach those who are struggling and need a bit of light to guide the way to their enlightenment. Thank you all and I hope you all have a wonderful and blessed holiday season