GOODBYE...A BLESSINGS IN DISGUISE

So happy to say goodbye
For I see it pays at the end
No denying
How I wish we are one.
But I have seen a better and loving days .And they have passed

I look forward to see better
For I have to let go of you
And hope for a better day
I thought it'll be so painful
But now I see better

When I look Back,
I feel i was in a cage or prison of love
I couldn't open up to another person
I couldn't allow love to reign
I became a snob
I became a bully and I couldn't even try another soul

My heart is broken into pieces
Waiting for you to mend it
Hoping the bright sun will shine one day
Gradually, hope becomes delay
Year after year, you feel like a fiction that never true

But when I thought our chance had passed,
You saved the best for a minute
Then you reverse the best
You ghosted me for years
You pretend you never care
And I feel it here you're dying for me.

But whenever I say goodbye,
You rushed to hold me back.
But this time around,
I mean my good bye
It's for the good of all

The last you came over
You left a part of you with me
I had your feelings
I ate so much that I got so worried
And my worrisome was proved right

I was carrying the fruit of our love
I was happy but sad at the same time
For I don't know how you'll react
I don't know what you could say
I was so down of insecurities and fear of tomorrow

What will you say?
How will you react?
No one knows
So I looked up to the sky
And dialogue with the Universe
To do the best for me

And then I felt the pain in my below belly and back
I was scared at the same time I was hoping it goes down,And before I know it
The pain takes away My happiness
Though fearful but it's still my joy
But I lost it for good 👍

Now I am free of you
Don't want to look back
Don't want to keep being a loser
Look into my eyes
You will see how tired I am
Where I think my dreams are blurred

Now I close my eyes
For the last time
I hope I will wake up
In a space and time
Where everything is not broken

Don't want to look back
At what I have left behind
I want to move through the cloud
And fly like angels
And taste sweet serenity
Experience sweet love adventurously

A shadow of our love
My memory will be
Heart will continue to look for you
But I know,my good bye
Will worth it now.
For everyone will be better now
For I will be free and happy
Any make life a better place to live.
What a sweet goodbye!

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