I hate every second of hopes and waiting for an illusion that is never existing.

Why am I in this?

A Man that is messing up my life who never remember me and.....hmmm... Who seems to never remember I ever lived... All I got is his brutal lies and gbam I forgive and let in but all to see him slip away cowardly.

Smile... I am just a fool...
Remembering everything and still can't see the reason why my life is entangled In this ******* lies.

I hate myself,I hate the time I spent with you.
I hate you with all my heart and being.

I am fun to be with.
Everyone fights to be with me but whenever I see the commitment, boom 💥 I blow it up for no reason. And if I couldn't get them off I blocked them and try to change my location.

What a demon in me!!!
What a wasted time I have been since I know you.