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Feb 2022
I want you to see
You who claim to love me
You who claim to save me
From that which I can't see
Ahead, but I know in my bones
I can't let bygones be bygones
Right now - I've worked a week for two
Or three, and I'm tired, and I have had too
Four weeks locked up through no fault of my own
And I am wearing close to the bone
And I'm dying on my own
I am not-crying on my own
I can't say I'm alone
When I'm out of the zone
Where the world is a stranger
And my sun turned from me in danger
As if I would **** him with my pallor
Because I asked for his light, in squalor
Or maybe just too young
And realising how much is wrong
And how much has been wrung
And how I have a limit to being strong
And how I loved too much
That I'm now sick of the loving, friendly, familial touch -
I did not realise how much I suffered
Until today's sweet sunny plans, by me, were scuppered.
Uni, Covid, chores, being a nice person, being taken advantage of, expectations, creeps, my projects, my dreams, my introspection, my health and my guilty love for my taken friend all got to me, and now I'm writing it down, 'cos I CAN... and I probably should.
Bella Isaacs
Written by
Bella Isaacs  22/F/Oxford/Paris
(22/F/Oxford/Paris)   
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       Billie Marie and Traveler
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