I’m sorry I haven’t written you a poem.
You would think almost four years would have been enough time.
It’s ironic because there is nothing to profess
No profound feelings to be had
Just coming to a realization.

My mind is oddly at ease.
The turmoil that previously resided there seems to have moved on
Like a storm passing over a ship.

I am no longer in love with you.

It’s hard for me to pinpoint if it was the long distance that did it for me
or maybe it was the lack of communication in the end
Maybe there’s a hint of jealousy and despair seeing you thrive in a place that was so toxic to me.
But, I would never ask you to leave your happiness and success
And I hope you will do the same for me.
I’m thankful for the relationship we had.
I could not have become the woman I am today without you.
You have given me the independence I’ve always craved
For you were the crutch I needed to get walking
But now it’s time for me to run
For me to start my life
Without you.
You may never forgive me.
And that’s okay.
but I can’t live my life tied down to such a volatile place
and I can’t love where my voice isn’t remembered.