I've lost myself.
                I can't find who I use to be.
                Although I keep searching.
                 I can't look in the mirror,
             And see the old me any more.
                         I can only hide
                  And look into the eyes
                            I call mine  

                       I wonder alone.
                        Not by chance,
                         But by choice.
             There are people ,who love me,
               But I can't bring them down.
                      I'm a sinking ship,
                   A ticking time bomb.
             I'm just not sure when I'll
                                  drown  

                         Or finaly explode.
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                         I've lost myself.
                           I can't seem
                    to figure out who I am.
                       I thought I knew
                    but i am only defined
                            by a man.......
             I cry myself to sleep at night,
                      and ask"God why?"
               I make my share of mistakes,
                   but everyone only seems
                       to remember them.
                  I can't let go of my past,
                and I can't see my future.
                     Everyone says I'm
                      like an open book,
                      but can they read
                    the lines I've wrote?

                       I've lost myself.
                          I' smoke ***,
                        I do other drugs
                        and gotten used
                          to being numb.
                         I have taken pills
              only to wake up in the hospital
                          I told myself it
                        will all be okay,
              it's just a lie I have to say.
                I fake a smile everyday,
                   so no one will notice
                      I've gone astray.
           I fight the demons in my head,
                      but I'm a one man
                     army against many.
                        I can't tell you
                    I'll keep my promise,
                 when I know it will break.
                        I can't tell you
                          I'll be fine,
                        my mind isn't 
                        working right.
                       I can't tell you
                     that I'll be okay.

                       I've lost myself.
                    I can't understand
                           who I am, or
                          why I'm here.
                    I can't comperheand
                         why I'm alive,
                      or why I still breath.
                         I can't tell you
               I'll live to see another day
                when I know I  don't want to
                I can't tell you I love you,
            when I'm not sure how to love.
                        But I can tell you,
                     if I see you tomorrow.
                 That I survived another day
                     and I'm still here to stay.
                     But if I don't wake up
          it's because today and yesterday,
                    Have finaly broke me.
              Hopefully I can be finally free