sometimes i wake up with the stars i mapped out caught in my eyes, other days its a silent panic- how many times have i had to fear my friends?
sometimes, like you, i hate the pet-names; the way they crawl under my skin as an excuse to not butcher mine. but i would melt like wax wings to be your ‘baby’ just once, won’t you let it slip off your lips?
like honey? like amber i'm begging to be trapped in?
how long has it been since my soft skin has been touched? how long has it been since i last felt compassion in the form of exploring hands and gentle whispers?
so beautiful, so soft, so willing to listen to me as i
fall like putty into your hands. into a love, no longer mine- oh, what would i give to be a lover?
lips full, never kissed eyes open, never seen ready to listen, but no words are spoken no sweet nothings, but arms wide open.
what would it mean to be held, as the sun began to rise again?
if i’m doomed not to sleep, might i do it with your name in mind?
if i’m cursed to stay awake, talk to me until the sun is in our eyes?
i would melt like wax wings.
would you have me then? would you take my hand, with the sweat on my brow?
would you have me now, so bruised and tired? with dark circles to balance my rose-tinted outlook? won't you hold my weary hand? don’t be shy.
don’t pretend; we both know i’m caught between daydreams. aren’t you nothing but a hallucination? i’m certain i’ve made you up in my mind. don’t be shy… don’t be shy.
my eyes ache but what would i dream? it seems we're just two ships passing quietly into the night sky, but i'd swim to you even afraid; even cold and shaking. i promise, just sit back & breathe, beloved.