must I love so violently must I love with all my blood and down to the bones everyone everyone do I love I do love everyone. my legs give out I’m weak in the knees weak in the knees and I don’t even want the crying woman across the bus stop and yet I do. want her tears to drip in my hands like a small fountain want to save her life, kiss her until she starts to bloom and until all my fire is in her mouth I don’t know how to carry it on my own
it feels so heavy in the pit of my stomach and the back of my throat and the curve of my knee and in my landscape of guts
I want to give everyone the world to make everyone feel loved to be the loving person who understands to everyone to be the butterfly pinned to their wall like ****** Jesus on the cross to sparkle to open their eyes to the beauty of the world to belong to everyone to be the saviour. to be the mother. to be love, to be love- to be love. not to be holy not to be God to be love.