Filling in the blanks. Throw away worn out pages from the journal of my past. Forgetting names, relationships that didn't last. No class, sensible sass on the *** of my jeans. Playing with words when I want to be mean. Don't want to be needy. Forgotten peace treaty with the demons eating my psyche. I'm ugly, you're boring, we're all like vampires feeding on each other. Undeniable hate, but I still always say "We should love one another." Denial undercover, smother the problems I'm not yet equipped to recover from with a sly wit. Another temporary fix to cover up the shiit that somehow replaced the mud and the blood in my veins. I'm lonely and strange and beginning to prefer it this way. Not well behaved, I don't feel like pretending to be today. That's okay, I'll try again tomorrow. Indian giver, time's always borrowed. Mostly hollow but I'm trying harder every day to gain the patience it takes to fill in the blanks.