I don’t like to be touched That’s the vibe I’ll give off But deep down inside I want to be touched I want to be embraced each time I see someone I’ll prepare myself and tell myself This time you’re gonna try I’ll build myself up But I never commit to the climb All my friends know I hate to give hugs I’m never the first one to initiate the hug Even though I want to I desperately need to I’ll hide this intimate secret craving I’m worried that I’ll make it awkward That I’ll hold on too tight Or even worse That I’ll let you hold a piece of my heart Which I hold so tight inside my chest I hate to give anyone the power to hurt me I truly hate it It’s the worse feeling To trust someone with something so fragile to me It’s my most precious gift I refuse to share it with just anyone But these are my walls I built Walls covered in barbed wire and roses The walls are so pretty to me They kept me safe They are my insecurities I don’t want my walls to come down crumbling I need to build a door A door will keep my rose covered barbed wired walls to remain standing A door can provide me an escape from my secret garden of memories A door will allow me to showcase my secret garden