The Jar
I tried to feel.
I tried to understand this unpleasant feeling
For I was told it would be healing
I opened the jar where I hid them all
Like a busy ant colony,
I let them scatter and crawl all over my body
It felt as if I was drowning in a sea of memories
A sea of my hopes and fears
I tried to control them but it only brought tears.

I tried again
My heart overwhelmed with anxiety,
I opened the jar once more
And it attacked me like before
This time, it relentlessly ate away at my soul.

I reached for the jar
Filled with the urge to be free
From the feelings that bind me
They won’t let me be.

I tried so hard
These feelings so intense
Make me question my good sense
The jar overflowing with emotions
I could no longer control,
swallowed me like a black hole.

I knew what I had to do
I reached for the jar once again
Tightly, I closed it in pain
And they quickly flew away.
I told myself
“Maybe not today.”