19 and held down by her shoulders her shirt still on, he doesn’t try to remove it it’s a hastily act that wakes her up abruptly as a penetrating pain spreads over a low section of her body she feels like a ragdoll so out of control, like she can’t scream for help because she didn’t say no to the first or second time but now she’s asleep and surely that’s a sign his hands on her neck and she thinks it’s just ***** but it’s to muffle her cries and make him seem less guilty it’s the third man she’s been with and she’s confused about counting it, she didn’t say yes but she still has to guess whether she should remember this and try to grow or remember it and let it cover the glow