A dictionary will tell you that drowning is the submersion in and inhalation of water. But I know the truth. I am drowning in sadness and loneliness and despair. In grief. In isolation. In self-criticism. I'm drowning in my thoughts. I'm drowning in desires and emotion and passion. In anxiety. In darkness. In depression. I'm drowning in fallen dreams, regrets, mistakes. I'm drowning I'm drowning I'm drowning and not a drop of water in sight.