A glass of poured liquor To help me forget you quicker. My lips around a freshly rolled blunt; Lead to me doing things I normally don't. I loved you immensely, Didn't know how much that would cost me. My sanity and sense of self escape me I poison and punish myself As the realization of our end sets in And I wonder if I'm happy with the world I'm living in. Without you, I search for satisfaction on my own I live in a house that once felt like a home. This is the best move for the both of us, Yet I turn to drinks, drugs, dudes; all in surplus. I can only thrive when I get the attention, False promises; I'm good regardless of the intention. The craving that can never be fully satisfied, The consuming addiction I try hard to hide.