Memories are slowly fading
Of a past that once was mine
As I reflect upon them
I'm shocked I once believed it fine

Gentle hands stroked my skin
While harsh words spoke aloud
Stuck in a state of confusion
Living under a dark cloud

I gazed into her eyes
Searching for her soul
Perhaps she was broken
Healing her became my goal

For every sweet word I spoke
Every loving act I made
It was never good enough
Feelings just continued to fade

Even if it slowly killed me
I refused to give up on her
Believing that defined love
What a confused amateur

I glimpse over letters
Of words we once wrote
Of journals my heart poured into
My healthiest way to cope

My way of moving forward
Was holding onto memories of my past
Feeling grateful for what I now have
Knowing with her this will last