My other father... for Merve

Locked away in my mind
No chance of release
Trapped in my room
Only place I found peace

Too broken to speak
But unable to weep
Tears locked frozen
Doors won't open
Hurt buried under
heart raging thunder

Then you were around
Spoiling my view
I wanted my daddy
I didn't ask for you
Sitting by my mum
Holding her hand
Churned up my stomach
Too young to understand

Then one day I felt a
Small love from within
You never gave up
You never gave in
Surly this meant that-
Could it really be
That I wasn't unlovable
Because you loved me

You were there for the
darkest long years of my life
Me staring at my reflection
Gripping the knife

I'm so grateful to you
that you stayed by my
side
I think had you not been
I would surly have died