Have you ever experienced the disagreement between your brain, heart, and body? when brain heart and body just outcry to each other and then you lose?
I have once when I had my firstlove first heartbreak
I cried everday for months everytime i closed my eyes in the shower in the bed everytime i was alone My brain told me not to cry yes because i deserved better than him because he didnt deserve my tears but my heart hurts i felt the physical pain in my chest my body that was the first argument between my brain, heart, and body
I loved dressing up and doing make up I loved shopping I loved watching movies those all are my hobbies but I stopped doing them all for months I tried thousand times because my brain told me that it was a good escape and healing but my heart wasnt interested at all and my body kept screaming to sleep
I loved sleeping I'd rather spend my time to sleep than play with my friends but I couldnt sleep for 3 days straight trust me I closed my eyes for hours but i just didnt sleep and sleeping pill was my last choice
I loved food but I couldnt eat for 3 days straight I wish i was being over dramatic but no I couldnt eat not because i didnt want to eat i wish it was the case but no Lord knows i really wanted to eat but every food that crept in my mouth would be thrown out again every single time I just couldnt eat literally for 3 days straight
My brain always gave the solutions that I really wanted But my heart always seemed not interested And my body rejected all the attempts that I did
that time... I just didnt know what to do... other than try to survive and never give up to love my brain my heart my body