breath, you seem to be running away mind, you seem to be lost time, oh time you've never cared life, you seem to have forgotten me
I'm trapped, trapped in a four corned room a empty blank walled cell an abyss of black nothingness a prison
my limbs are heavy but my eyes won't close my double-minded heart is a stone so I'm sinking and I'm drowning drowning with my eyes wide open drowning with an anchor tired to my foot drowning with my eyes wide open for all who are wondering what it feels like to drown well it feels like nothing it's empty
I want to move but I have forgotten how I want to scream but my lips are locked shut so I let myself fall I let myself drown, and Maybe I deserve it infact I know I deserve it I was living as a shadow of a shadow of myself not knowing if I was ever going to live beyond this shadow of a person I've lived like this for so long it seems so endless.
This is my state of mind.
Fight they say but fighting isn't that easy but then again no-one ever said it was And honestly I'm tired of fighting and being strong why do we fight why should we fight why do I fight
if everything I do is worth nothing If all of it means less than that of the life of a goldfish then why should I, tell me why and maybe I'll listen maybe I'll change stop me from breaking before I stop breathing don't let me keep falling grab my hand and pull me to the surface
but you never listened, did you? you never noticed that my heart stopped beating never saw that I was burning and I was drowning And I know it makes no sense to you but it does to me I asked and I cried but you still let me fall You still let me drown
breath you never came back mind you were never found time you never waited life you never remembered me no one did
even after all I've said I can't really explain to you my pain I'm waiting for the day when I can I'll wait to be saved