Concealed depression is Buying water proof mascara So you won't have to reapply makeup after each daily breakdown.
Concealed depression is Laughing at everything so they won'tΒ question why your eyes always water.
Concealed depression is staying up until 4 a.m because it's the only time you can ignore the world and no one will notice.
...Or concealed depression is taking three melatonins in hopes you'll sleep deep enough to keep the terrors at bay.
Concealed depression is Staying consistently busy So your mind will be too exhausted at the end of the day to fight you.
Concealed depression is the impatient selfish monster that burns bridges as you cross them.
Concealed depression is feeding yourself lies like "I'm fine" or "I won't cry".
Concealed depression is the uphill battle that you don't get to win once; it's a mountain you're forced to climb every single day.
Concealed depression is silently screaming, hoping someone will have super sonic hearing, swoop in like a bat, and carry you under their wings.
Concealed depression is never hugging too tightly or meeting a gaze too intensely in case your guts may slip out before you can catch them.
So when they accuse you of changing, when they accuse you of rage and indifference, of violence and apathy, when they ask why you never called, when they ask why you never told them, all you can say is that concealed depression is like an overbooked hotel and there's only room for one. All you can say is that you were afraid Your darkness would drown them too and then there would be no one left to save you.