i wish i could talk to you
          as i used to
when i didn't worry about what i said
and could speak with ease
when my words flowed to you
like quiet rivers
flowing to the ocean
i wish i could be around you
          as i used to
when i would melt at your side
rather than flinch at your accidental touch  
when your embrace felt like more of a home
than the house i lived in
i wish i could be yours
          as i used to

s.s