Hate to see that frame And know that my face ain't the same Cuz I know I am dying slowly And lonely But that's just the truth Sometimes I wish I could re-do
Myself Cuz I would create a strong shell To protect myself
Yeah, there was too much weight That I wanted to escape From But there gotta be some People who beat hell out of me Yeah, cuz they want me to be Something that isn't me
Yeah, tell you this Sometimes I miss My smile Cuz as I walked the mile I realized That the file had real lies As I begin to look at the lines
My tears made me go blind And erased My smile I had in my face Yeah, as people in my school Who were trying to act cool Told me to go commit suicide
I took a side And that slid To realize that if I committed suicide
My whole family would cry And as I visualize No! I won't **** myself Cuz I am here for a purpose And those who thought
I was worthless End it up plotting dots Yeah, hate to know That I could've save myself
But I was too focus on my fears That made me drop tears Yeah, every night I had nightmares That turned up my fears To speak up
Tell you this Sometimes I just wanted to disappear And appear In a lonely world Where I could feel that happiness But what happens When you are so, focused On the fears Makes your spirit Get the ticket To know that if you speak Yeah you will kicked And picked But though I was split
I begin to flip coins And take turns To see if that would change the things But it did nothing
Not till that day The sky was gray
Yeah, this bullies Were behind me Yeah I ran fast so, they don't find me But they got me And began to kick me And pick me
Yeah, that's where I realized In my own eye's That I had to fight back
Yeah, they got that smack Didn't care if my bones cracked But they got that smack
Cuz I as tired that I acted weak Cuz I didn't speak
And after that day I realized That there was hope In surface And yeah I begin to face
The fears And the doors of happiness Begin to appear
I wrote this poem to make everyone realized that they are not alone and I wrote this poem to based on a experience that I went through but till I got tired I decided to speak up for myself. And thanks my parents I was able to smile again. :) So, speak up up cuz you are not alone:)