insecurity /ɪnsɪˈkjɔːrɪti/ is an uncertainty or anxiety about oneself or lack of confidence
but insecurity is more than that.
insecurity is feeling like you cannot wear the green shirt because people would call you and it ugly.
insecurity is spending an hour in the bathroom to cover the spots from cruel, laughing eyes.
insecurity is hiding in the back of the classroom with a shroud of mystery to conceal the fear of everyone laughing at your answers.
insecurity is layering yourself in conservative clothes so the mockery about your weight is out of sight out of the obnoxious gossipers mind.
insecurity is retiring to a world of books in the comfort of my room since my peers cannot accept me and my interests.
insecurity is allowing only a small amount of food, water, life to shed the faces full of ridicule.
insecurity is creating a veil of sweaters and long-sleeved shirts to hide the razor marks of a haunting past.
insecurity is feeling shamed of any uniqueness because of the unnecessary attention and inability to hide your shyness.
insecurity is sustaining the weight of a burden from the unfortunate events of life and the helplessness that you couldn't stop the crash that killed your parents.
insecurity is redesigning yourself to be perfectly alligned with society's expectations making you forget what makes you unique so scornful looks are redirected.
insecurity is forgetting that it's alright to be different despite another person saying otherwise.