Tormented life, struggles of troubled strife.
No delights when serving the dope pipe.
Fight for life at the end of the knife blood dribbles.
thoughts are cloudy and scribbled.
Mentally insane,
contemplating more self-inflicted pain.
Self-conscience remains.
Empty pockets empty brains.
Crepted invisible deceptive message makes all miserable.
manifested irritable,
cut throat on principle.
Need a death miracle.
My visions are endless.
My decision are critical.
Somebody end this.
Never to see a new day, Highly considerable.
Skin peeling served with blackening eyes,
as victims are screaming from scraping one vertebrae at a time.
Ripping out your spine.
Tormented elusion, negatively influencing and polluting my mind.
Life's worth losing when everyones out of line.

Passing looks across the room.
She takes a moment in despair.
Noticing me at once but dares not to share.
Telling herself in confidence theirs not a one who compares.
Speaking soft sweet desires in the gloomy nights air.
Most take no notice but I couldn’t help but to stare.
Odds stacked against me the games just isn’t so fare.
Wishing to caress her body while running my fingers through her hair.
Dreaming of lustful inquiries to long got me no where.
Moments lost in time forever one couldn’t care.
Once I accomplish my endeavors entirely only then her name I’ll declare.

I once walked the dark voided path of emptiness.
Searching for desire to love once again.
Surprisingly as it seems death was my reality as well as my dreams.
Not a light to guide, nor a purpose to strive.
Not a place to be seen.
Not a place to hide.
Before I met you I had lost all hope in truth. Then you came into my life, a light not a one could describe.
The star of my night.
The sparkle of my eyes.
Is this truth or have I been hypothesized.

Your as magical as a flowers pedal upon the sea.
Floating ever so effortlessly.
Only to Reveal yourself when the moons essence illuminates thee.
The whisper of the night’s breeze will bring a moment of clarity.
All is right, all is free.
Free from the ******* that binds you to me.
The flower and the seed.
Forgetting today’s Tragedies.
Tomorrow’s a new fruit,
one full of endless possibilities.
Letting go of artificial needs and obligations to fulfill your greed.
Urgency to be everywhere at once,
but not I.
Patiently I drift,
Just a pedal upon the sea.

Lately I’ve been thinking
Thinking to myself
That this life’s been sinking
Sinking beyond the belt
It’s up to my neck
In all the **** that I dealt
I drove straight into a wreck
With all the guilt that I felt
So I guess my life wasn’t worthy
To move on by myself
I need you in a hurry
Before all my time runs out
So baby bring the gurney
For I lost my way
It’s dark and it’s scary
And all the lights gone away
I’m broken and thirsty
For all you love today
Don’t leave me cold turkey
Please help ease my pain

Baby this life
  I can’t take it
I want to be heavily medicated
  Every time I try to sleep
I’m awaken
  Promises I couldn’t keep
Has me breaking
  Days turns into weeks
And I’m fading
  Moments to soon to speak
Words complicating
   I’m lost within reach
And I’m irritated
   Baby this life
I can’t take it

Walls Are closing in
To many barred cells
I’m trapped within
To many years incarcerated
One can spend
Mentally of physically
I could never win
These institutions
Become my only friend
This clock keeps on ticking
And my time’s running slim
Ten years in the system
Yeah four years in the pen
A motor without a piston
These tires will never spin

The only part I’m missing is one without an end. Look at your friends, look at the when’s and look at my Benz. Jump in the whip with all your sins. We’re all in this **** so take a look through the wide  lens. So you think your picture made perfect. Swaggy’s in the back seat cause his life was worthless. Never took shot gun or driver now his life’s ******* like a screwdriver. So what’d you know looks like we all have a place in this world. So grab the steering wheel and Let’s go explore. Once upon a time life was all about the score. ******* these *******, selling these drugs and kicking down doors. Never went to school, never worried about chores. Always hung around the ruff crowds shooting outta Ford Explorer. His name was Swaggy. Never had a real daddy and lived life by the baggie. He was always wearing his pants saggy. Clutching his nine, selling them dimes and yelling at ******* get at me. Next thing you know, he was swerving outta control. Catching them bodies got him life without parole. Now he’s trying to get ahold of someone on the prison phone. Sad no ones ever at home and he’s always catching that busy tone.

Tell me now
I’m broken
Please explain
The unspoken
In your arms
I’m hoping

To die in vain
Yours I remain

Doors to your heart
Left open
All those harsh words
Softly spoken
I’m drowning now
Slowly choking

To die in vain
Yours I remain