Red on my shirt
White are my jeans
The sky is blue
And I am free
Like the
American Dream

Even though you lied to keep me
I still love you dearly
Should have moved on
Just have let go
But who am I kidding?
I love you so
No jokin'
I can't escape it
The past
Brings me
Back
To
**Us

Sometimes I wish you would give me a call
Maybe give me a sign, a little signal
It's cold here without your warmness
It fills the room with an airy breeze

the warm feeling in your throat
when you drink
is the best

Losing you was hard
but Alice
you have found
Wonderland

You're like a shooting star
Always near from afar
I know you are
Always there

I know you get attached
but tearing our friendship up
just because I made up
with a friend of mine
who you dislike
why guilt trip?

you blocked me online
without a single warning
can't help but feel stupid
for re-connecting
with my old friend
because now you crossed a line
saying I stabbed you in the back
when all I did was make amends
because I couldn't hold a grudge

you say I betrayed you
but this isn't about loyalty
this is about your paranoid state
the one which truly scares me
I wish I knew what to do

if I can't be friends
with her
because of an old fight
that you both had
then why
have you
in my life?

I cherish you
I always have
but controlling
who I'm friends with
that is something
I can't understand

you said nothing
would ever come between us
well, I guess I was right
because something did

I haven't done you any harm
guilt tripping me was wrong

my friendships
don't affect your life
so why think
as if they do?

Not sure what the hell I'm thinking
Or what the **** I seem to be typing
I have this urge to fall apart
Trying to resist temptation
Don't want to fall into the dark

your lipstick of lies
is wearing off tonight
you can't touch
what you lost
breathe
and think
before
it's too late
to drown out
your sorrows
with drinks
find someone else
if you need love
don't even approach
my table in the club
unless you're dying
for a punch

Sister ruins a lot
I'm not always to blame
She truly is a mess
So am I
But not as bad
As she is

the baddest addictions
are with good intentions
not to cause harm
but to feel okay
I can say
I've never broken an arm
never been under
a sadistic charm
broken myself
but healed up again
kept going back
to feel my heart
patiently beating
poisonous thoughts
are like cyanide
so easy to think
it's even easier to die
the more addictions I have
the better I seem to feel
how tragic is that?
life has some
but no appeal

Hundred dollar bills in my pocket
Gold chains around my neck
If you ever mess with me
I'll stiletto yo face
Got that Italian swag
And a personality to match
People say I'm horrible
But no, I'm just a *****
I don't take no ****
From a bunch
Of wannabes
What you see
Is what you get
When it comes
To a girl like me

I saw you at the bar
Drink in your hand
The rest is a blur
But I'm sure
We spoke
And exchanged
A moment or two
I think I know you
Even if I didn't
I would love to

I believe I love you
You thrill me
You know you do
I believe you're the key
To my heart & I
My thoughts are up
In the clouds
In the sky

I do think you're the best
my heart you stole
not like the rest
a flawed love
with a
simple
touch

Money* is nothing
compared to *your everything
Your love is my *fortune

Your love was sweet
I was hooked
From the first taste
I was addicted
Didn't want it
To go to waste

It was a bitter pill
That I wanted to swallow
But now, I regret
Ever taking that risk
Because now, I feel sick
The pain won't go away today
Or even tomorrow.

Quality friendship time
rolling cigs and
lighting blunts
drinking wine
having fun
living quite a bit
for the hell of it

I love my friends
I love my blunts
I love my ***** shots
and wine glasses
I like laughing loud
and speaking my mind
all while I'm high
and having fun

My friends make life hilarious
they make me smile
when times get rough
I feel so very fine
when I'm here with them
they make me feel okay
when life leads me
the other way

memories stick around
but they become
easier to ignore
easier than before

your face does still matter
but it's gotten easier
to not always remember
the days we crashed
into a depressing slumber
your eyes are still precious
but I've learned how to cope
and not fall right under
under your spell
like I used to
I guess I can say
that I'm getting
right over you

memories are cherished
but the present isn't
we changed and so much
I cannot stick around
I'm too good enough
I am so much stronger
but I used to be weaker
but clarity made me wiser
we were never meant to be
as a whole, us together

your everything wasn't pure enough
I can't give to someone who always takes
but never seems to give a lot back
I lost so much, went out of my lengths
just to keep your heart beating
just to keep you near me
but this time, I'll be leaving
I hope you'll be good
right here without me
but of course you will be
I am a stranger
you never loved me
but sometimes
I know you do
even though you
never took the chance
to prove your worthyness
sometimes I believe you
and tell myself I'm not over this
but it's time to be moving on
but you'll always be
the one who
took my heart

Can't go on without your love
You are the one I'll always want
I feel like I have found the one
But you don't love me and it hurts
Please forgive me, falling hard
For the one who left me scarred
My heart is empty without you
You're the reason I pulled through
Don't leave me alone here
I'm falling down the stairs
My dress is covered with stains
The stains which are my flaws
Forgive me, I'm losing control
I need your love, I'm so ill
There are no happy pills
Only lows and temporary thrills
Cannot go on like this
You said you'd catch my fall
My heart, it suffocates
You made me feel
Like I had it all
You took my heart
I broke down my walls
Stood for nothing
Now my heart
Is crumbling
My hands are shaking
My knees are trembling
You are the medicine
Why aren't you then?

brilliance is in your eyes

People could send words like knives my way and I would still find a way to laugh. You can't break me down, I'm so far off the ground. I have heard every word and insult in the book, but I still don't give a ****. No reason to be hurt by some *******'s words which are probably lies. I might be ugly or whatever people say, but still prettier than your ****** personalities and words of hate. Too happy to care about haters today, don't bother with me, I won't cry or tear up for a ******* ****.