The tears have drained
the scratches remain in my brain
What to ask when they promised you dreams
and then made all of them break

Like life on fast-forward, an unfinished race
like the words at 12 you can't speak
like the late night conversations you forget
I can't fight these monsters in my head
screaming we are still aliveee

The scars still remain
you thought everything'd healed
What is reality,what a mere hallucination
when they are all mixed together

Like memories rushing in, an earthquake
like the dark shadows of trees
like a deafening silence you can't escape
I can't see through this fog through dreams
nightmares are coming to get youuu

Do you know? I'm deeply afraid
of the future, of my dreams, of the love that never came
but most of all of my incohesive mind

                                                        There are days when nothing seems fair
                     for an enchanted,dreamy thought, I'm in Singapore
                                                      and I lead a ship among turbulent storms
                   fallen in love with a knight from another world
                                                          
Do you know? I'm deeply scared
of things that have never happened yet, of the ghosts late at night
of my frustrated feelings in your averted gaze

Hot cup, your large couch and a wooden floor somewhere abroad
You caress away my unexplained tears, "Sorry I don't usually cry"
"You will be okay",  my favourite almond taste, how you always knew
Lyrics become far-off places when you search somewhere to hide

Daydreams,trusted moments and you remembering everything
You follow me in the rain, "What do you listen?"
"Everything" I say and then you defend my broken pride
Conversations become last escapes when lost in your soul

Airplanes, my headphones and a mind I miss in the arrival's room
You ask my hand for a waltz, "I don't know how to dance"
"Neither do I", your laughter the most wonderful sound
Memories become romantic adventures when covered in chocolate

I walked through the doors and I saw you standing there
I wish I had taken the goodbye you didn't share
But every time you are around I can hardly make a sound
I know, deep in heart, you're the part that needs to be found

I saw you smiling at me twice today
and you had that look in your eyes, like a dream
If that smile was for me, I'll never be able to say
and, darling, if it's all in my mind I'll watch you leave

Standing by the window, I can't take my eyes off of you
people talk but I'm only wishing you'll say you love me, too
Maybe I'm crazy or maybe we're both too shy
Please,say one simple word to make my day shine

And for one more night, I'll sleep in your arms
that sweet daydream, you can only turn to reality
and you whisper simple things,protecting me in your hug
nothing can hurt us now, wishing it wasn't just a fantasy

We wake up next to each other as the dawn cracks
You smile, you say hi, my hands in yours are tangled
I see your sleepy eyes as you kiss me carefully
as you'll go your way, please live fearlessly

It's only few weeks and here comes this summer
I'll desperately miss how you take my breath away
and all the sparkles that fly with your laughter
but I'll never forget your birthdays and everything you say

In some years, I'll come across our class' picture
I will remember, then, how madly in love I was with your figure
If you see it,too, I hope you'll remember the girl who wanted to be a writer
if you'd never forgotten her, her world will become a little kinder

Do you know, we are all made of stardust.
and let me remind you,
we are the same constellations Tycho Brahe saw
and we are blind and the light is millions years old
and we watch the past lying there on the grass
and you kissed me but it was only my mere dream.

Do you know, we are not equations of maths.
and let me tell you,
now that you know more,we are only important to each other
and we'll be a forgotten memory to the stars
and in a parallel universe my dreams are true
and my soul shivers with your touch.

There's this air in South France
So alive you can almost touch it
Soft enough, it blows away the candles
Numbered seats, train wagons, I wish I had taken with you

Warm hands on my frozen nose
a memory in red burning
Your arms, your hair, my cheeks

There's this air they call it Mistral
So loud and you can almost hold it
Light enough, it carries the grains of sand
Kaleidoscope films, sad endings, I wish you'd wipes away my tears

A stolen kiss in a forgotten dream
A wheel in Marseille, spinning
My scarf, my gloves, your lips

Did I ever tell you you're my saviour?
There were days when I felt a little too lonely
and everybody would think I'm strange
There were days that blend together
and a face without a name

I must have been a person who never spoke
'cause I'm still surprised by my own voice
and you were there to make it heard

I can't remember how it used to be,
a single figure learning how to live
and pages were my only way

You know I don't know how to be a friend
and sometimes I think I cry too much
because I can't forget us in the schoolyard
and there moments I almost touch the past

Did I ever tell you you're my saviour?
Μissing you is like orange autumn leaves
that will never be alive again
Missing you is like colours mixed
in a bursting maze of thoughts

It must have been cold before I met you
'cause I now feel your hug embracing
and I don't know what I'd do without you

I can't remember how I used to be
without someone to love me back
and words are my only way

You know I don't know how to keep a friend
and sometimes I think I might be losing you
because trains and ships take you too far
and there's nothing I can do to bring you back

Did I ever tell you you're my saviour?
There are days when I'm so glad
because you make goodbyes so sad
There are days that I hear your name
unconcsiously it makes me smile

I wish I could've given you some of my thoughts to be yours
You used to take over my incohesive mind
Yesterday I asked for you to take my heavy books, if only you were here

Elves wandering lonely moonlit streets
memories, it's been a while since I last dreamt of you
Thursday re-adapting to freedom passing slippery streets

I wish you could have known my friends to be yours
I guess life takes over people of all kinds
Today I only thought of you when returning home, without that familiar fear

Pirates abandoning stranded wooden ships
melodies,it's been a song from a bar fading into view
February blowing far your figure walking next to me

I wish you will give me a "hello" one day to be mine
I leave you in a dusty shelf untouched by time
Tomorrow I'll forget you a little more till you become transparent, a broken tear

Duchesses dancing by themselves with no prince
mysteries, it's been a question how I now trust a few
This year breath-taking my soul from longing for your kiss

A soundless face that you'll soon forget,
a silhouette embroidered with loneliness

And now you only fancy hugs of darkness,
when did you gave up light?

A daydream forgotten in the way there,
desperate to love as you break my wings.

But you would see everything in kindness,
why are your eyes so teary?

The stories entangled in all these pages,
the worlds I'll never be able to touch.

Peter never understood why Wendy was meant to grow up
why she had to leave the blissfulness of Neverland

If there's an answer to his questions it would be that
she was dreaming of castles and voyages and someone to love
while he was mischieving pirates,chasing a never setting sun

I often wander if I'm more like her,
sincere, gentle, a duchess-to-be
a young girl who dwells in stories

or like the boy who wouldn't grow up,
nonchalant, full of lovely wonderful thoughts,
Peter Pan,the one who could fly

But what did he do when she left?
Is she a beautiful memory in a child's mind,
why didn't he abandon immortality for love?

Here's Wendy, back in Kensington Gardens
a lady asking herself what if I had stayed
why couldn't he abandon youth for her love?

And she will forever remain in his mind as a little girl,
who played family with and dreamed
but Wendy will be married and will be kissed
but not with him.

And Peter will always be a chasing dream,
a fairyland with pirates and ships,
a world of villains, mermaids and the boy who
didn't return her kiss.

I read, imagining his crooked smile growing up
or her staying forever
and none of these feels completely right

In the end, I am another lost boy who went to Neverland,
and flew and fought with a sword, and swam with mermaids
and danced around fire with the eyes of Tiger Lilly

Sometimes there I return, finding him lost in her thoughts,
but there again everyone's forgotten among the things we never say...

All I am a memory drawn in an old picture
I sit there in the yard as I did a year before
everything's different and still the same

The exact same walls I painted back then
with the same paintings of stars and dreams
there where I felt the burden of the future

But then what is a future without colours?
Imagine a world between Monet's water lilies
and the soothing sounds of a piano

There where I sat with a long lost friend
gazing stars that now I can name
and there we talked about art and love

I think about those photographs too much
as time is forever frozen and minds shine
Should I abandon my crown now?

When I'm lonely I dive in books and memories
embroidered with Marc Chagall's dreamy mixtures
and sometimes I cry too much, but it's okay I know

I'll keep them inside the compass of my heart
I'll never be alone till I can still remember
all of what I learnt between lyrics and unsaid words

Some day far away from today we will meet
in some street forgotten or around trees
I hope maybe I'll will still write and dream

Desperate notes, late nights
You, for whom nobody would fight
A tidal wave of tears
A warm blanket, which won't cover your fears

Waterfalls blend in the sleepless nights
And I follow you, follow you home
But the voices are just too loud
and sometimes too low

Melancholic words, summer trips
You, who was never allowed to dream
A bunch of nightmares,
Your little mind, who's the one who only cares

We were just kids,learning the life
A 14, your birthday a big surprise
At 15, a bunch of kids seizing the hopes
sitting for the test, learning the ropes

I hope to see you soon to know you're okay
I hope I meant to you as you meant to me
3 years later,we've chosen a different way
We passed in order to be free

We thought we would stick together
But lives change like the weather
Our voice would echoe in the wells of light
If I knew you were all copying just fine

Are you materializing your far-to-reach dreams
'cause I try to,the world upside down how it feels?
Did you notice the leaves changing in the fall?
We'll be grown ups in a while, still miss you all

I hope to see you soon to know you are okay
I know we chased down the end of the rainbow
3 years later,we've chosen a different shade
In order to be us,no one to follow

I know this was supposed to be a song about him
his dark eyes, the most mermerizing of his smiles
But your words drift again in my loneliness

How you abruptly stopped talking to me
did anyone put words for me that time?
Did I do or say anything in my carelessness?

And I wish I could tell you how I miss a friend
who asked to sit next to me in class
after years of people finding me weird

And I could have learnt about your life
and how is it saving people's lives?
You could tell me in our poetic way

Every day I wonder the halls alone
missing you and her and hating
my friends who got it right finding new ones

I can almost read your answers in a mail
writing that you are so glad we are still us
but that can't become true, can it?

And today I would write about my heart
how it stopped when he said good morning
but I'm lost in your memory once more

How could you walk away this way?
After all these promises you made?
But I still hope you'll reply one day

Another passing car along with passing people
Headphones not loud enough as music paints
Uncovered sounds and distance.

Everything quietly mend but for quiet lights
Centuries already there as eyes only blink
Unsighted moments and distance.

Am I stucked to the same old page of a withering book?
Has our story ended, why have I hopes?
But you go on forgetting me, maybe hating me,
why didn't you just explain?

Everytime I read a poem I wonder what would you think,
or if you cry reading unsatisfying,sad ends.
And I'm hiding behind my dusty glasses
while you're a step in front of me in a running over-crowded bus,
not greeting like we've never met before.

Because I miss you that's why I can't form a proper friendship
and people leave, like you did, inexcusably.
Maybe I only miss those idealised memories,
or need someone who understands all of my aspects like you used to.
And they'll keep the promises I believed in.

What if I'm stuck to you calligraphic inscription in a tiny note?
Do you still read those five pages letters?
Do you remember them? Do you remember me?
Are we complete strangers again?

Like I didn't know
but I misunderstood
the voice in the phone
I thought you were good

A word coming out of your mouth
it pierces my heart
Nothing I can soothe
it makes everything fall apart

All I can ask is why
why you take all your preverse problems out on me
You think I'll be fine
I think it's maybe I always look like him
or maybe I'll never be what you wanted me to be

When all your screams
echoe in my mind
The tiny line that bleeds
is always out of your sight

A word that can follow me around
Mad for no reason
Corrupted if raising my sound
You wear your worst season

All I can ask is why
Why the gold one others find is your personal sinner
Now I don't think I can shine
I think it's maybe I never looked like her
maybe she was always your protected little angel child

The unjustice occuring
right before your eyes
Your cruelty only touching
my hopes I can't find

A word that can make you forgiven
Emptied of them today
Just for you to fall back there again
My promises left away

All I can ask is why
why I'm the one you can't be there for
I just want to fly
I think it's maybe me not cut to what you dreamt of
maybe I'm not the follower of you

I hope you still remember me
in your new friends you seek for me

I hope I can't be compared
and that you miss me

'Cause I know all these inseparable vows mean nothing now
as you feel sad, glad and mad
kilometres away from our friendship
And I can say that because I'm the only one rarely invited
and always left behind

I hope I still mean to you
the way every hey fills me with joy

I hope I meant to you
and nothing hurts you like your goodbyes

'Cause I know all these unanswered messages mean nothing now
as you smile and joke and forget me
kilometres away from who we used to be
And I can say that because I'm the only one who's always asking
and you rarely reply

Waking in a misty winter morning
and feeling the dawn crack
I take my camera
to keep a memory of London Tower
before the rain falls.

Out of the hotel window I see the Eiffel Tower,
he is sleeping peacefully next to me
I can feel his love when he's touching me,
his fingers wrapped around my bracelet
my best friend gave me.

I never thought I belonged to my family
Family are not the people who don't support you
and I ran away to find one that feels
just like home.
I found friends that stand by me forever
and friends are the family you choose.

It's Christmas and I'm in Seattle,
it's freezing cold but I don't care
and the rain that never stops.
But the sun is in our heart,
looking into those gorgeous eyes
when he says "I love you" and
get's down on one knee
and gives me this ring.

And I want to keep all these memories,
pictures that won't make me forget
This spring in Florence and I'm in
my white dress when he says "I do"
and I did,too.
Of course I see all my friends there
giggling and whispering about
the new born surprise that awaits him.

I never thought I belonged to my family
Family are not the people who don't support you
and I ran away to find one that feels
just like home.
I found friends that stand by me forever
and friends are the family you choose.

I never thought I belonged to my family
Family are only the people who love you
and I ran away to find one that feels
just like home.
I found friends and him that'll stand by me forever
And friends are the family you choose.

A silent quarrel I didn't fight
The time melting clocks
Not someone you recognise
My head a bunch of knots

I hope someday I'll find your amulet in the attic
maybe regret the things I never asked
wishing I'd give you a bigger piece of my mind

I don't know how I could be
a precious little thing you miss
If I stand at your house door
would you let me walk through?

I hope someday you'll come across all of this
and every song will remind you
what kind of friends we used to be

The courage I can't find
The time memories lost
Not the person you'll reply
Melancholic song of the fall

another bleeding night
tears on an empty sketch
songs with too loud lyrics
scratches over my eyes

deep under my skin
rejection of life and love
a lost case of myself
nobody cares for me

salt over running veins
a cage of freedom
white lies killing truth
gibbeted muted feelings

dying parched lips
loneliness too hard
cold blooded star
unspoken reasons

another bleeding sight
tears on empty friends
shouts from vacant souls
scratches over my face

I hope you still care
with your big caring eyes
I hope you still fall in love with fictional characters
and you haven't given up on fairytales

I hope you still read
all these books we shared
Maybe you still wish to have lockers in  school
so a secret admirer could fill them with notes.

I remember you laughing really hard
at jokes we could only understand
How your smile disappears when you are sad,
how the world shatters when you are mad.

I hope your eyes still shine
whenever you get amazed
'cause I haven't seen them for a while.
I know you might have found eternal love,
do you remember about asking if we've ever been kissed?

I remember your heys and the world sparkled
intervals when we looked for each other,
a single thought was enough to share.

Those notes in our books still matter more
than thousands words of my other friends
I know they say nothing but they are still you
untouchable by time, for me to return there.

You wrote that I would never be alone,
how you knew I was surrounded by loneliness?
And now I become one with it,
embracing the cries of the night...

Missing you and hating myself when you act like I never existed...

You said "Should you forget about your past, you are nothing", You said....

Buried rabbit hole, you never knew what was there
a crushed mirror brings bad luck, sorrys won't save you
This is like kindergarten, I'm trying hard to understand
"Why you didn't tell the obvious"

Abandoned playground, you never come to play anymore
a broken swing that can't be fixed, the ropes won't hold you
This isn't fairyland and I'm finding hard to tell you
"Some day the dreamers wake up"

Open book, you never read between the lines
hell is bringing its demons, secrets won't trust you
This is our twenties, I'm trying so hard to laugh
"How I wish I was dead"


*And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4N3N1MlvVc4&feature;=share

There are daydreams when I'm lost in your love
the one I never had but always asked
This is when I remember you most
your hair and the way you talk
and your eyes missing nothing at all

My new friends built on my new life
I still laugh,the way you remember(if you still do)
It's been a year,I can't forget you
For my love poems, I devote all of them to you

There are nighthoughts when I want the past back
the chance we had but never asked
This is when I miss you most
my hands trembling every time you talk
and my eyes searching for yours

I hope my thoughts reach you sometimes
and you have a place for me in your heart
I hope your life is the way you imagined
and you remember me when you rarely laugh

My new friends don't judge my silly rhymes
I joke with them,the way I would(with you)
It's been thirteen months, I can't live οn a memory
For my first love, I'll always think of you

I'm letting you go, dear past
you're the ether that scientists thought to carry the light
they discovered you don't really exist (the speed of light is invariant for every observer)

I have things to live, new adventures to imagine
the dream scared to wake up
dear, it's time to take a chance...

'Cause
She won't be there again to write in my cherished books
And I will give her a happy ending and say hello when we meet again
She was so nice but left unexplained and there is nothing to do

And if you by chance knock my door again, ask for a cup of tea
please remember you won't stay after 10 unless you're real

I'm keeping some music preserved, you know
like the stars save a million years that you can travel to
they found a lifetime it's actually enough (time dilates and space contracts)

I have memories to make, friendships to shield
the soul afraid of dying
hey, now learns to live and fly...

'Cause
He won't remember the tears I shed some nights before
Or how he kissed me in the parking lot when we thought nobody watched
They were so sweet, dear, but have never happened at all

We can talk like old friends, forgotten lovers, listen to some songs
please remember you are a treasure but you are gone

I see your eyes in strangers' eyes
I look for your heart within the unknown
But everyone fails and I can't keep up

In meadows of dreams and eternal sleep
every blades goes right in the veins
Because there I see you and I am me
in a never stopping running train

These strangers just slowly walk by
A street light hides everything in the dark
Can't see me under this illuminated  veil

All these lyrics etched in my mind
meanings you forget in the way
I find excuses every single time
as you jumped out of the train

I'm unhurt by all these words
only you can hurt me
more than me,you have my sword

And all these scratches are battle scars
how smoothly goes your blade
as I was trying to protect my heart
please take away the pain

What would you do if today
was your last day?
You always said you wouldn't follow the crowd
You wouldn't be bound by rules
You'd be the sound
the lyrics, the tune

The person who would stop and hear
who'd listen to the wind
and fight every fear
Where did you flee?
But you didn't answer

What would you do if
today was your last day of life?
You always said you'd follow your heart
You'd materialize every dream,
you'd be the last one to hurt,
every quest would be yours to seek

Everyone thinks they're special,
they are one-of-a-kind
Sometimes it pains to be just normal
where you the one seeking for the light?
But you didn't answer

The person who made the difference
and who fought for his choices
was it of so much significance?
where you the one making these noises?
But you didn't answer

What would you do?
You always said you'd be loved
did it **** you, your wings cutting off?
you'd give love
and your first kiss, but to whom?

Everyone says it's okay
but you don't believe it is
the repeating, you don't want to stay
You'd give your first kiss or else you'd dream what true love is
But you didn't answer

What would you do if this day
you'd face the last sunrise, the last sunset?

What would you do if today
was your last day?

Chocolate in paper cups
Early mornings having maths
Long bus drives that never end
Letters I've written but not send

Cinemas next to the port
A falling star that we lost
Photos of us with the sea backround
The waves we reach with no sound

We live in a society oathed to distruct
Too many scratches in a tiny box of love
My mind is racing back and forth
Am I the one, the same I was a moment before?

Sweet shops like the sixties
Nebulae that this magic kisses
You're already too far away
Memories that I'm afraid to make

We are people destined to forget
Too many black holes into which we step
My mind is lost in bright fallen leaves
The rain will turn into light summer breeze

Why did you have to do this?
Your talking turned to screaming and it echoes through my dreams
Feeling like a knight with a rusted sword
it couldn't escape the tears and the blood stains

You know, it was okay when it was between me and you
why did you have to bring my friends in your little game?
Now,I'm a Cinderella with no shoe and no prince to save her

You become a ghost to haunt my nights and my thoughts
and, darling, honestly I couldn't breathe
Don't play dumb to cover you lies, now we're in front of others

Do you think we are just fine?
You live with hallucinations of things I never said or asked
Pretending to be an innocent damsel in distress
do you expect your king, honey?

I don't like making me feel an unreliable captain of sinking ships
where will it get you, this little chess game with no rules?
Now I'm locked in my tower trying to be saved from your knives

Your flames scorch my armour and burn my words
and, love, you are the dragon in my sleep
You spread rumours like that, all you are is mean

Shaking hands and the goggles you bought her
keep her dreaming almost every night
First day back and forgot to say hey
keep her crying every other night

Remind her how it feels to hold her like last night
and she was sober enough to remember your hand around her thigh
Be careful with what you say,she becomes enchanted

Stolen glances,you have to buy her chocolates
that's how you will win her heart
Christmas day and you have to call her
that's how you won't lose her

Remind her she's not just another star in your sky
she's the sun if you look her through a telescope you'll get blind
Be careful how you treat her,don't leave her stranded

Unheard words and the clubs where you hold her
keep her thinking how you almost kissed her
One day soon tell her how you missed her
keep her far from other girls, how you kissed them

Remind her how you must have lost your mind
and she's not brave enough to catch your every single sign
Be careful what you do,act like you never take her for granted

Remember the castle we built that could fit us both
my clumsiness and your gracefully hands?
It still stands there waiting for us to play in its gardens
I promise I won't step on the flowers

You are the princess and I'm the remains of a duchess
who had learnt to dance in moments of awkwardness
And you were there laughing, holding my tiara
when the others turned their heads the other way

Remember the castle we built that nothing'd break
our strong bond and my dreamy rhymes?
It still is there but there arrows shooting the windows
I promise I'll do my best, hold on

We were just children playing with wooden swords
Steady feet don't fail me now, I'm ready to fight
They are there lurking,watching to see the fall out
who would have thought all this insanity?

Remember the castle we built that had no prisons
they have put us in and left us there stranded
It still waits for us to break free, oh free
And I have a pen and you but she's got nothing at all

It's repeating history, darkened and twisted,
all we've worked for, crumbling like grains of sand
You'll never see me cry 'cause of her little white lies
Life just goes on without asking if you've moved on

Remember the castle we built with trees and knights
and the ball that we danced all night?
It still waits with the boy you kissed under the stars
I whispered constellations to break the spells

You'll take your crown again and I''ll write again
about love and dragons and seas and clouds
And you will laugh with my incohesive thoughts
and the others far away as long as we have each other

You are still all over me
in the books I haven't read and I'm afraid to touch
They'll lose their magic if I open a page

And there you come, your rare smile caressing my thoughts
Saying in uncertain words I had to do this at least once and you kiss me
When the future hadn't come and the summer was us to hold and I couldn't believe it

You have to go before the sun banishes the stars, the night
But you always stay in my things, hiding in every uninvited shade
And I can't have you here taking over my days, you are only a ghost of Christmas past

You are still all over me
in my clumsy hands I don't let anyone to touch
They'll lose the steadiness you gave

And there you walk by, in a theater hugging me despite your friends
Saying in firm whispers I can't lose you my love and you kiss me
When the future was too far and the year was there for us and I couldn't believe it

I have to dust you off my clothes, my room, my mind
But you always come in dreams, demanding your rightful place
And I can't resist when you flood my heart, the memories like flashing lights burn


*You are still all over me...