The sun rose and set
And here we are again
It’s a beautiful day.
Smiles and acts of kindness
It’s just
Nice.
What a beautiful day.

Treading Water

My head is just barely
above the water.
I’m gasping for breath
and flailing
and failing
and oh my God
I might sink
I might lose this battle
but I’m kicking and flailing
and splashing and
I want to live I want to break the surface and breathe so I
swim hard, so hard and I
fight the current and
and drag myself
out of the depths of the sea-
this ocean of despair and I do.
I pull myself up and out and to solid ground.
I made it.
I’m
Here.
Grounded.
At least for a moment.
This is
My chance
to stand on solid ground.
I made it.
I’m ready.
Let’s go.

Can be found
anywhere but mostly
in places
you wouldn’t expect like
Right here
Right now.

Always a believer
Always hopeful
That there are intelligent beings somewhere
Out there
In the universe.
Because clearly there are none here.
We are simple.
Neanderthals.
All of us.
Mouth-breathers and dinosaur bashers.
Simple.  So simple.

I Write

I write it down.
Somewhat poetically.
Spill my guts.
Somewhat poetically.
And then I read it later and I’m promptly ashamed
to read the truth of it all
so then I delete it and
go about my day
And then night comes and I look for it but I got rid of it so I write it again.
And the cycle continues.
Emote
Delete
So I don’t have to absorb it
and live the truth
or deal with the  things
that are eating me
from the inside out.
I guess that’s just the way it is.
I guess
that’s  poetry, baby.

Elsewhere

In the
Nether regions
Of my mind
I remember
I feel
I live
It all. Every moment
In time
No matter
The pain
The cost to
My soul.
I just keep
Living and
Enduring
It
All.

I Feel

I feel my way through life.
Always have and I always will.
I listen. I reach out. Feel
Hurt
love
live
despair
hate
all of it all of it.
I feel
I feel
All of it
Every
Day.