And once our problem becomes unsolvable ,
we must forget about that problem and move ahead towards the solutions of many more.

I used to think I can't find the people who match my vibe but I was just not able to accept that I was the one who can't actually match their vibes. I always wanted to make myself feel good about that I've no friends thinking friendships will do no good in my Life. But in all this I just denied the fact that no-one actually wanted to know me. I'm terrible person as in order to comfort myself I always thought that everything they're good at is just show off, everything they do is to seek attention. I thought they'll want to be with someone like me but in reality I don't even exist to them. Concludes that how fckedd up person I was and I'm. I don't deserve anything I know but it's good that I finally accepted all this cuz till now I was afraid if someone will pity on me as I'm always so lonely , always sitting alone awkwardly. I wanted to be cool , famous and have a lot of friends . Now I actually understood that  all of this was always leading towards me being a worst personality. I just hope and wish good to everyone and stay healthy and happy always (even though y'all are already living the best but still I pray y'all get everything y'all want, never feel these kind of emotions I'm going through right now). At the end I just wanna say I always wanted to be a good, kind person but idk how I ended being like this that even my family thinks I'm rude and all bad stuff.( So def I can't expect others to think good about me) I really mean this that I always wanted to help others but I just forgot that I need help the most. I hope God forgives me and God I Love you as I really don't have anyone to share all of this. You know my all good and bad. I promise to not repeat the wrong doings and hope you will start Loving me againnn with time.

I never said it
And so did he...
Maybe he's somewhere, thinking about me.
And all the last moments with him
seems like a lie.
It's been an year and still I can't deny.
Deny the fact that I  can't see myself
with someone new.
But wait, we never dated so why?
Maybe everything I've felt,you felt that too.
But this 'maybe' makes me feel so blue.
Why do I hope that you smile when u think of me?
Cuz you're always on my mind, like crazy .
But I never said it ,
I never let my feelings rain .
Maybe next time until we meet again.

My whole world revolves around non-genuine but realistic things.

Gazing the stars at night,
he recalls everything.
"I did so much only to see this sight.
What am I seeking? ", he asked himself.
"With all those hectic days and hopeless nights,
I've come this far . "
"What memories? They only gave me scar."
"Where it's leading me?", he asked himself .
For all my dreams,I gotta work hard
But in those hard works , where's the happy card...
Was it necessary for all the things to be done?
Living like this, was it fun???