Testing of my patience
and the miscommunication.
I can't change the past
and for that, I'm grateful
because sometimes
we think we know someone
we never truly did.

i laid on the bed completely defeated
with tears in my eyes and a handprint that left my skin heated.
i said no, and i meant it.
but you begged, you just couldn't accept it.
after you ****** me and used me at your disposal
you turned away from me and the phone screen lit up your face
so i turned my back on you and cried into stained sheets.
i never looked at my body the same
after you branded my body with your all-too-common name.

i looked around as far as my eyes could reach
i saw blue hues, swaying branches, and beautiful life
is this what life is supposed to look like?

i looked at the birds flying high
and i thought with one more step
or a fall from the loss of traction in my shoes
maybe i could fly too

i looked at the trees shake their green
i closed my eyes, breathing in
there was nothing to be seen
i found peace above the evergreens