My self-control irks to be known
But I can't help it, it can't be sewn
One after the next
cigarettes and ***
I can't resist.
I can't.
It leaves me feeling hexed.

Come into my arms where you belong
He said to me with a smile
The drained youth and obsessive lies
Have made this world so vile
Red nails and whitened teeth
There has to be much more
There can't be much to offer
When you aren't keeping score

Your mysterious sad eyes are imprinted in my brain
Your music fills my mind
Your piercing stare that I once enjoyed
Makes me so unkind
But all good things must come to an end
I hear it all the time
But the thought of never seeing you again makes me out of line
I tried and tried and I'll try once more
But I cannot go on without just one last score

Remember when we would lay all day and dream about our love?
Remember when there was more to life than just ***, and cars, and drugs?
I can still feel your fingers through my hair and the way you kiss my lips
I can still feel your presence in the air
And your palms pressed on my hips
Some things aren't meant to be
I know that for a fact
So why can't thoughts of you leave me?
All I feel is cracked

There is something wrong with me
I feel it when I take a step
I feel it when I take a breath
There's something inside
Scratching to get out
Like a flower that cannot bloom
It hurts inside
I can't sleep at night
I can't put my finger on it
Screeches and growls echo my rib cage
How did I end up on this page?
Cracked lips and emotional dips
And no one to help at my fingertips

Paper rustling and coffee brewing
Did anyone really know what they were doing?
Placed on a path where no flowers grow
Each step is taken with no gentle flow
Thinking and drinking
What were they thinking
Does anyone know where else flowers grow?