Real person will bore me,
You play many roles
in the fantasy of mine.
Driving me insane
with your every spoken line.

Rage
Red rage
Like erupting volcano
The blinding anger
Cracking up loud
Fire won't out
Burning forests
as it won't subside
Will take days and more
calm the loads destruction
The remnants and the ashes    
All that relationship and bonds

The dreams, them long forgotten kept beneath everything that keeps happening all around.
The walls are being pushed, there is not enough on the ground.
If all that matters in the world is sustaining, fulfilling ambitions will never be good
Everyone seems to be chasing something, money, power and kind
It won't matter much if the efforts are ill-timed.
The moving art, it is not respite but a major struggle,
There is no one who cares about it at all.

A void, the emptiness, there is a window open
To bring in the sadness, it is the only feeling to come
And it comes.

My both set of grandmothers departed this land,
The start and the end of year as it happened
Above eighty, they lived through the eras
Saw the nation defeat and built.

Lasted longer than their spouses, outlived their peers
Lived through the crowd and loneliness,
Fed their kids and grandkids.

Their memories and their things,
Their words, they repeat in my mind
I keep thinking of them, them again.

They loved me and other dozen cousins,
They worried each day if I eat my meals,
catch my bus, reach home safe and sound.

It is funny how it comes to humans,,
When it is time to depart, their body deteriorates
The heartbeats comes to rest.

I really wish to have more of them,
I yearn to hear the same stories yet again,
Their hardship and the beautiful life.

I wish I had more time with them now,
I deeply wish I could go a year behind.

Every inch of luxury
made up from someone
unfortunate's
blood, sweat and tears
We are willing to pay
a fortune to their employers
who will not share the wealth fair
They struggle for daily alms,
they die in the scorching heat
the air conditioner works fairly well
thanks to them
welcome to modern slavery.

My brain is cracked
the tension lines are dark
My habits untracked
Suppressed and lifeless
The chest is silent
heartbeat faint
The loss of control
and I can't control myself at all
the cure is for those who wants to be cured
the disease makes it
harder to think
it is just so hard, I keep blinking.

Is it still ongoing, the bloodshed?
Violence is no good, don't we know that?
Guns keep firing, in other nation and our own,
what happens next, more blood spill?
Is power, everything, no empathy for living?
Are humans blood hungry, why is it not stopping?
How is there no solution, only ego?
why make normal humans martyrs?
Is it going to end, the unrest?
Or soon will I too be drop dead?

There is no truth out
when both of them have said
fair share of lies,
who should you believe between them
they both are using you
for rising sympathy
and their greater good
your emotions are played with
it is an acting game
trust them when, and not
we are spectating it
like a tennis match,
but we are the ball,
landing on their bat
thrown across again and again
you are doomed
finding bits of truth in their lies
either way, no one can complain,
it is no easy call.

My heart beat rushed over
It was a series of long hover
I've been looking for
glancing back my shoulder
complicated, insecure
I am being let out
always left out
but a whisper
my name from your mouth
I rush, veins rush, cheeks blush
I touch my heart beat
how do you speak
Why do I go weak
in my knees.

Oh, in the night
your message, my phone screen
flashed all in my dreams too
Slept late, woke up early
to find you not there
It was 10:30, let's connect
but the time went
You didn't show your face
It became the same race
didn't justify you are late
I am done but why I am not
The same can and will
Come to repeat
You hold my keys
I am doomed as it states.

Your promises lay forgotten
pile inside a locked drawer
You'd never remember
they exist
I am half gone from existence
but you still have
strings to make me dance
to your tunes
It is crazy, I am crazy
while you don't try, lazy
I'd die in a heartbeat
but you wouldn't even acknowledge
that I exist,
the moon sets, I wish I can rest
Another time, let's not meet ever.

Put this pictures apart
Place this shapes distort
A distant vision to begin
I put my soul in between
I chase after things
which will divide me from within.

Hard to take a step back,
When million miles remain forward,
It took me years to get to the highway
Passing through many bylanes
But I need to know where I am going
has beautiful scenery I wish to explore
I am not looking for lost paradise
Nor do I want to walk the barren lands
I want to experience eternal sunshine
not chase behind pretty butterflies
that won't stay in the palm of my hand.

You wanted the world
Now the world won't let you be
Till you cease to be

I never knew relationships come with an expiry date,
past that everything goes stale
and what to do with it,
how do I know,
that this Titanic will not sink
fast.

I found everything when I was lost
In the valley of my thoughts
every second paused,
but lost every thought as I came back
to the present and the same spot.