“i love you”
you whisper
as you hold me close
and fill the distance
between our bodies and soul

ring ring
i answer the phone
it’s you,
pawning off all of my posessions
back into my arms
as if they were covered in poison ivy
unbearable to touch

he loves me,
he loves me not

ridding himself of every display
that i ever traced hearts onto his bare freckled back
and filled nooks and crannies with my passions

deleting my existence
one square foot at a time

i keep the night light on
the switch frozen in time
breaking up my darkness
invading my hours of blackout
where i’d look up at the ceiling
and happily see nothing

i keep the night light on
waiting for the day you’ll come home
the hallway will be illuminated
to protect your pace
from stubbed limbs as you walk back

i keep the night light on
light splatters through the doorway
i display a slight smile
at memory of you entering the room

i keep the night light on
no longer craving to be engulfed in dusk
but to be smothered in your arms
as that was all i needed to sleep, anyway

i catch my breath
escaping out of my lungs
as if it were being chased
by friday night hooligans

i walk down the aisles
in search of what i’m looking for
surrounded by stickers
and meaningless numbers

this isn’t where i belong
without you by my side
and your confident strides
eyeballing every tool in sight

a heavy pressure builds in my chest
like a cat suffocating my rib cage
i can do this on my own
but that’s not the point
i wanted you to love me so hard
you’d beg to do it for me
just to see me smile

i place my items down
and shuffle out
empty-handed
i can’t bare to make small talk at the register

now i must learn science
to turn back time and win you back
we had chemistry
but i spilled the beaker
gravitational pull
every atom of my being belonging to you
with your electromagnetic hands
but i am reactive
i burn and burn and burn
i set fire to the oxygen surrounding me
i explode like a nuclear sunset
i am a gamma ray
and you are the calloused feet that ran
behind your lead shield you stay
but i am stuck here forever
i cannot decompose
i am cursed energy
i can never die
though i’ve never felt more dead
i am burdened to exist forever
in every form i transition into
but you are life
you are precious and fleeting
full of energy
until one day you are not
i am doomed to see the world without you
infinitely
i beg to be powering your body
my temporary home
i wish you could stay forever
but i am energy
and you are life
i’ll be stuck here forever
waiting
for your reincarnation

i would sleep unclothed
not for comfort
but to feel your skin on mine
in the most intimate
and innocent way

now i sleep bundled up
covering every inch of my body
because nothing will ever matter
as much as your skin
on my skin
your toes
on my toes
your hair
splashed across the case
so beautiful

acid drops
tingling down my spine
your fingers
interlocked with mine
heartbeats heavy
in velvet love
amongst the colors

in this moment
we were forever

i swore to your god
i’d **** anyone that harmed a hair on your body

now i sit alone
eyes red
weapon in hand
i wish i’d seen this coming