i hope my absence brings you the peace my love couldn’t.

i will never move on from you
you’re engraved in the back of my mind
similar to the way the pavement smells after summer storms
i’ll never be able to get rid of the late nights
or the shared meals and drinks
i’ll never be able to move on from you
i love you
i’m sorry.

If you loved me
Then why couldn't I change your mind?
If you loved me
Then why couldn't we try a second time?
You thought you knew me
But I'll never be fake like you
How you used me
How you moved me

the sun failed to shine that day.
the ruby red roses failed to bloom
the sun failed to cast dancing shadows upon the streets
the clouds deteriorated into nothingness.
everything changed the day you left me.
and the sun still fails to shine upon my tear stricken face
abandoning the lit up the memories stored away
of simple me.

oceans wash over me.
obliterating my sin,
purifying my soul,
making me clean.
they wash over me coming
one after the
other
after the
other.
washing away their hands,
their smile,
their voice.
washing away the peices of me that once belonged to them.
these oceans of mine will simply wash me away

till death do us part.





i guess it wasn’t  death that could undo us.