my defense mechanisms
have not defended anything
they have only hurt others
and led me astray

i feel like i have to justify
everything about me
to anyone who questions
and its getting obstructive

you seem so far from this
cause ive shut you out
and now youre hurting
as i sequester myself

for hours
i could lay here
staring at your structure
high cheekbones
that only the gentlest of hands
could caress and not get cut
you could lay here
for hours