I have fought depression my whole life. I am stronger than I ever was because I fought and won every time. I built a foundation that is going to stand until I take my last breath on my deathbed. Hopefully I will be old and happy. I don't care if I fall in love again or if I am with myself until the end. I know I am loved by my family and friends. I have many more memories to build before I say fair will my fellow poets and friends. I am going to be the best me I can be. Woe never beat me because I know my worth is priceless. I am one of a kind. I deserve to be loved and supported. We all do.

Thank you for reading my poetry. I am honored to have a following and fellow poets to share my poetic desires with. You guys are my muse and give me a purpose to keep writing and sharing my life. Poetry is how I speak because I was born selective mute and I am too scared and confused to speak like I write. Poetry is more than just line's of words, for me it's my voice. Every word I write is a piece of my history and legacy. I love you guys very much and I appreciate you. You are my lovelies my rose's and I am your thorns. I will protect my voice by expressing it through poetry. This is my personal design. You are part of the vine on which I have grown. Hello Poetry I call my poetic home. Boop! 👉👃❤️🦇🌹

Sad Me - Seasons Change Collection

My mother passed away from cancer in 2015 and I promised to always share her with anyone who is willing to read my poetry. I miss her dearly.

Alex Murdaugh trail is the inspiration for this poem.

This is inspired by my body dysphoria. I might have a women's body but I am not dictated by what's between my legs. I chose to be who I am not a gender. I never played gender roles. I am uniquely autistically me. You can't change me neither can I change myself. My brain is exactly what it is, was and always will be. You have a choice to love me for me or move on and don't be a ****, be kind to each other and humanity will thrive. ❤️ "Love is acceptance and success because it helps build societies so be kind to each other and humanity will thrive." ~ Amanda Shelton

May peace be with you all. ❤️

I am watching true crime videos on YouTube. I came across a video about an officer who has been accused of ****** deviance and his department has been covering it up. But they have been caught on video but nothing is changing. It does seem that our whole justice system is corrupted by criminals calling themselves police officers. I can only imagine how good cops feel about their corrupt coworkers.

Love is love ❤️ Hate is death and dangerous 💔

Sad Me -Seasons Change Collection

This is a new poetic collection. Sad Me – Seasons Change Collection. I am going to be writing sad poems with themes using Autumn, Spring, Summer and Winter. This poem is the first poem in the Sad Me – Seasons Change Collection.

Tourette syndrome is horrible. I have it and anxiety makes it worse. If I get embarrassed I have a full blown tourette attack. People staring, people whispering, people making too much noise can cause me a tourette attack. Just walking into a building can cause me anxiety because I am always worried people will be there and they will notice I am different and stare at me. I've had people come up to me in public because I look different and act different. They don't understand I have a movement disorder and they are making it worse by making me the center of attention. If you see someone who looks different or acts different please don't stare don't engage them, live your life and let them live their lives too. You might make it harder for them if you engage them. Unless they engage you please move on. Tourette syndrome is effected by a person's emotions and the environment. We all are part of the environment so the best way you can help us is to be aware of the situation and be respectful. Thank you. ❤️

Red bull kills our dreams with it's caffeine overdose and too much over processed junk. It's a heartache in a can pretending to be a red bull that gives you wing's. Makes me wonder if the company is aware of the health risks. Why would they claim it grows you wing's if they don't understand the health risks? That hipper feeling is your dreams dieing they go weeee! Bye your heart goes pop! Bye! Should have had a water instead.

This is my depression.

Thank you for the support and views. I wish you all well. ❤️

I was attacked by a troll on my blog and wrote this poem in response and I blocked the account and WordPress helped me get the account suspended from the platform. I am blessed to have a strong support system.

Ashen Rose Darkly Written is my alias for my blog Gothic Realms. I also used it online on Goth communities.

I was watching YouTube videos about gold digging and I came up with this poem. I also thought about how people are greedy and some give false hope to make money.

This is inspired by my ex narcissistic boyfriend.

For our future children who forget about Twitter. Elon Musk is a billionaire dummy, who claimed to be a genius but couldn't show it. He killed a popular social media platform called Twitter within a few months after he illegally abstained the website. His narcissistic personality kicked in and he dominated the platform losing control over it's algorithm and he fired all of the staff. He can't program nor run anything so it failed bitterly and hard very quickly. He's all bank no genius. Everyone sees the true fraud he is. Elon Musk is a stinky skunk that ate Twitter. I doubt he enjoyed every bite he took as he slowly devoured it's bones and feathers. He probably coughed up the pieces he couldn't disgust like an owl.

I started counseling. I went to my second appointment today. I am going weekly on Wednesday at 9 am. I am finally building my own bridges so I can stand by myself. I have discovered I never had a self. I have body dysphoria and it's holding me back. I need to build myself to deal with the abuse I suffered. My ex did a lot of damage and I already was damaged. I worked hard to build a platform for myself and he tore it down in two years and I didn't have a chance to build it back because I was trapped for seven years in his abusive tactics. He neglected me when I needed him, he expected me to sacrifice everything for him and he did nothing but complain about everything blaming me for his discomfort. He caused me paranoia and anxiety because he broke my self esteem and security. He stole and lied to me. He gaslighted everything I did and tried to mock me and steal my work for himself. The dude made a blog similar to my own and got upset when he didn't get the same attention I get. When I worked hard to build my community, it took years for me to get my blog where it's at. He can't achieve the same thing in one post. He can't even write good poetry. His makes no sense. He needs to work hard to learn how to write poetry. I have been writing since I was seven years old, before I could write my mom wrote for me and I told her what to write. I am autistic too so I started out slowly. Building my blogs helped me improve my writing skills because I wanted to learn and get critical help from my readers. You guys are my muse and support. He doesn't want to work so he failed. He also made it harder for me to grieve for my mom after she passed. He wasn't supportive instead he was attacking me and accusing me of cheating when he was the one cheating. He bugged my apartment to collect evidence I was cheating. He got very mean when he couldn't get the evidence he wanted. My mom had to help me protect myself after he broke into my apartment and stole food and used my stuff in 2014. He never apologized or took responsibility for his crimes. Our community doesn't care about me either, they didn't punish him after he was reported and caught. They literally paid for the damages and he is free to cause more damage. He also murdered his cat while he tore apart his apartment and ended up in the hospital for mental health. He ended up breaking out of the hospital and walked home ****** and mentally unstable. I reported him but nothing was done. He brought dug dealers and prostitutes into his apartment. Pretended to not know they were criminal's yet he brought them in to make deals and feed his own addiction. I am forced to deal with the mental health issues he caused. Our justice system is broken, there's no protection or justice. I am proof. It needs to change. The lack of justice is damaging lives.