You feasted yourself with
the beauty you saw in front of me.
The smiles, the laughter, and
the nonsense talks behind
those mischievous glances.
Yet you never cared to look
or even spare a glimpse
at the scars branded at my back.

I look at myself everyday
in the mirror and then realize
I've been given the most beautiful gift
I could ever ask for - my existence;
my chance of life;
my chance of love.

Thank you..
For the pain you caused.
That way, I learned
that in this world,
no matter how much
love I give,
it will never be enough.

I gave my heart with his HELLO
and broke it with our GOODBYE.

I am afraid.
Afraid that the lightning
will strike me;
that I couldn't bear to listen
to its thunder.
Afraid that no matter how hard
I try to protect myself,
I'll still end up hurting.

I was about to hold your hand
when you said goodbye but
you already started walking away
and all I had to look at was your
back as you go.

Let's mark the Sunset with the kiss from our love story.
And when the evening comes,
let the Moon work her wonders and engrave it into our memories.
Then we'll replay it as the Dawn breaks til the Sun rises.

And then he gave me things,
expensive things
then I told him he couldn't buy an affection
that was already dead,
much more an illusive love.

She was just
one of his once-upon-a-times
in reaching his happy ending.
But for her,
he's already the happily-ever-after.

We both ask each other how we are, if we are okay, if we are fine.
We ask those standard questions to cover the ones we want to say. Until one of us slips and strips those words with their own facade.
We have moved on with our lives.
That's for sure.
But we haven't moved on from the feelings, have we?

You are my sky,
my tranquil type of blue.
Whenever I gaze at your beauty
you put my heart into bliss.

You are my sky,
my unique and exquisite hue.
At times you may be dark and grey
still, your essence is true.

People thought it only existed in fairy tales.
She found it cliché.
He brushed off the very thought of it.
But then it happened.
They happened.
We happened.
And we never expected it.

Her heart ached for the sorrow she saw in his eyes.
She reached out her hand to him.
Yet he chose to drown himself alone in sadness.
She burdened her heart of pain for the both of them.
Hearts were broken. Tears were shed.
She cried for him while he cried for another.

Your radiance blinded my eyes
yet they didn't hurt.
Your words pierced my heart
yet I did not bleed.
Your fire set my soul ablaze
but I wasn't burned.
Your chains held me to the ground
but they made me soar higher.
This is the kind of love you give:
complex yet affable,
resilient yet comforting,
agonizing yet appealing.

Memories are just like the stars above.
Some shine bright. Some lack luster.
Some feel so near. Some, cold and far.
Memories, like stars, give the feeling of nostalgia.
Reminiscing the moments as how they were, as how they are.
Memories, like stars, grace the thoughts at night.
One makes the eye tear and the other gives it light.
Memories recalled make the heart happy and blue.
Because at the end of those memories, there's always you.

You are the Sea - peaceful and soothing.
Your big waves are your strengths.
And the small ones, your charms.

I am your Shore - acccepting and silent.
Your weaknesses, I embraced.
Your failures, I welcomed.

Not many will understand and agree
But that's how a Shore loves her Sea.

You crossed my mind
and it felt right
but then I was lost
and I doubted you.

You were already beautiful
but I chose to be blind
then I caught myself
looking at someone
lesser than your shadow.

You were my regret,
my sorrowful bliss.
You were more than enough.
Now, you're out of reach.

I love to see you fly freely
without the shackles that bind you to me
without the thin red string that connects us
without the belief that we're meant to be.

I love to see you fly freely
with all the love I can give
with all the wish I can whisper
with all the smile I offer for your dreams.

I want you to be free
Not looking back to what you'll leave behind.
Free from worries of what should have.
Free from worries of what should be.

That's the thing about having a broken heart.
When the love you felt was true and pure,
it still hurts overtime.
No matter how long time has passed,
the scar is as painful as the wound.
It's a ticking time bomb.
When triggered, you burst to tears.
Crying all the questions and regrets you have over the years.
And sometimes all you can do is breathe in deep
as there are certain pain and tears you try so hard to keep.

I wished..
I asked..
I plead..
I prayed..
..for time.
..more time with you.

And the Sunset witnessed it.

He held out his hand for her to hold
when she was afraid and unsure.
He comforted her worried heart
with the strength of his smile.
He saved the last of her will
with the warmth of his words.
And then with all the things he did for her,
he became the love she knew.

He was positive.
He brought out the best in me.
He made me realize things with wisdom and clarity.
He erased all insecurities.
He made me see the other side of the world with glee.

He was negative.
He brought out the worst in me.
He made me angry and mad with so much ingenuity.
He wounded my pride and distorted my complexity.
He burnt my patience until it was gone entirely.

He was neutral.
He never put blame on anyone or anything.
He stayed silent during the times my mind was on chaos.
He never took any sides though it was obvious I was at fault.
He remained to be a listener and gave judgment by default.

But in everything he was,
in everything he is,
he would still remain to be my "once twisted dream".

Do you know what I miss?

I miss the gentle smile that was for me,
the lingering looks with blushing cheeks,
the feather-like touch that revved up my senses,
the soft whispers full of affection.

YOU.

I know a girl for so long
whose affections can never go wrong
Love made her heart happy and weary
And this is her story

She was so innocent and pure
She fell in love and thought it was sure
She risked her heart with eyes blind  
And he entered her life with a cunning mind

She made an effort with the hope that she's wanted
When in reality, he just took her for granted
She reached out to him with gentle hands
While he buried her heart in the sands

She gave him roses. He caused her the thorns.
She's an angel with the bright halo who loved a man with horns
She cried in silence for her heart to mend
While he laughed and smiled with his friends

She decided to save herself and walk away
For he never gave her the reason to stay
She packed up after being broken
She left for he just made her one of his tokens

She almost gave up hope in love
But someone was sent for her from above
He sings joyfully with songs of praise
That sets her heart ablaze

She then started to genuinely smile
A smile that was not seen for a while
He makes her heart abnormally flutters
And she misses him as if it's all that matters

You can again see the twinkle in her eyes
When someone mentions his name where her happiness lies
She's been enjoying every moment
As he sings songs together with his instrument

I knew all these coz I was there
From the moment she fell until the time she was spared
She's been through a lot to end up in nothingness
That's why I've always been praying for her happiness

I saw an empty chair
and I have an empty heart
Still not knowing why we are apart.

I know God has His own story
for you and me.
He is the only one who knows
if we’re meant to be.

I didn’t mean any lover,
not even any foe.
The only one I meant
is my only song for you.

Though I hold that music
and I know what’s true
I will forever remember, I promise.
I really do.

Just let me shed for you
a single tear
So that I will not anymore
feel any fear.

Let me hold that only
hope I have.
And let me live knowing
that life is still full of love.

How many times
do I need
to break my heart
just to heal yours?

You are drifting further and further away from me
And I don't know if I'll stay or leave you be
I feel like I'm no longer of use to you
You've reached your dreams
but I still have to reach mine too.

Pray tell, between us two,
what am I to you?

Let's pretend everything's fine
Let's pretend that you're still mine

That even if it hurts big time,
I still write poems for you with rhymes.

Let's pretend that we have no end.
That I love you still
and stay, you will.

All that we have,
all that we will be..
Let's pretend.