Born to be
-is a belief

born with gifts
-nature's choice

a Theist says God has a plan
an Atheist says Go with the flow
will Universe has an answerer?

sorry, my friend
I am just a questioner

I need

...but have been too long alone
untouched by desire
the presumption of love
in joints of dust –the lame of lust

So...

Unseen
Years creep by
Silent, numb

No one remembers
who I was

Raising my eyes
to the window—
–a flock of sparrows rise as one
into a gray sky
of mind

Beauty left by the back door of day
unnoticed in fading light

A dull ache
is all

The last shall be first
and the first last

I thought if I could swallow the stars
I’d be as beautiful as the evening sky
I tried one night    with fireflies
They burned my throat
Their legs striking at soft flesh
But my skin did not glow
No moon crawled from my eye sockets
I was left with corpses in my stomach
I soon learned I would only ever be
A cemetery

I'm sitting here
on the darkest night
when a poem comes
and says, "stay there",
and silence will be your friend.
Let's pretend
to know each other
even though
we never remember
faces like the people
we once loved.
I'll say this
and everything you hate
shut up.
You are victorious
over all solitude.

It’s not like I haven’t tried.
I do it daily. I daily fail.
It’s not like I’ve given up.
I do it daily. I daily fail.
It’s not like I don’t forget.
I do it daily. I daily fail.
It’s not like I still remember.
I do it daily. I never fail.
Yes, I still remember you.
How can I not;
When you still own my heart.