The days seem shorter now,
Darkness growing as the light fades away,
I barely notice,
Keeping the curtains shut,
Isolating myself in darkness,
Letting the outside be forgotten,
My bed has become my friend,
As more and more people leave my side,
Their reasons unknown,
But I just feel alone,
Depression and anxiety go hand in hand,
A feeling of mortality has washed over,
Losing someone I thought to be immortal,
Lost in time,
When will that feeling end,
I open the curtains for a second,
Only to see I've missed the light,
It fades away,
The darkness enters,
I close the curtains again,
Headphones,
Darkness,
I'm done...

It's happening again...
Slowly, but I can see it, I can feel it,
Finding people who seem like friends,
And then being shut out,
Backs are turned,
Plans are made,
Your opinion not wanted,
Your choice not needed,
They don't even notice,
They don't really care,
Cause they're having fun,
Laughing with each other,
While you walk behind,
Looking alone...
But you're used to it...
Because it's happened before...
And now it's happening again...
Slowly, but I can see it, I can feel it...

I dreamt of being a super hero when I was young,
Flying around in the sky,
Defeating the bad guys,
Saving people that needed help,
But all childhood dreams come to an end,
And eventually we need to grow up,
Now I dream of ending it all,
Just closing my eyes and letting myself fall into the abyss,
Because now I'm the one that needs help,
Because I can't pick myself up off the ground,
I'm the one that needs saving,
Oh, how times have changed. . .

Silent tears I'm crying,
A thing that nobody will see,
Even if they do,
They will soon forget me,
I'm never ever good enough,
I'm always second best,
Constantly having life put me to the test,
Im trying to stay strong,
While still living in the dark,
But one day I'll leave all the pain behind me,
And I will make my mark. . .

If only you could see the damage you're doing to me,
The heartache that comes with each text,
The tears that flood my eyes when I hear your name,
The pain when I see your face,
I wish you could see the damage you're doing to me,
Maybe then you'll understand,
I love you,
But it isn't fair,
The damage you're doing to me. . .

My eyes cry rivers,
My pillow is stained wet with tears,
My mind is bullied with negative thoughts,
And my heart aches for what used to be,
All I ask is,
When does the pain stop?

Have you ever cared about someone so much that it hurts?
Like you can feel their pain,
But you don't know what to do,
Still want to help in anyway you can,
So you ask if they're okay,
Even though you know the answer might be a lie,
All you want is for them to be happy,
And you hope that one day it'll work out for them,
Because they deserve it,
Even if they don't always think so. . .