This feeling is like
A weighted blanket
I can’t shake

A suffocating
Uncontrollable
Hurt

A silent scream
Ever present

A severed connection
Separating me
From life

Stuck behind glass
Always looking in
Banging loudly
Yet never to be heard

Only ever alone
With my pain
The only one
Always by my side
The only one
Never to leave me

Like a cry in the night
Left unheard
But not unspoken
Never really unspoken
Simply ignored
But why?
Why was I ignored
And overlooked
Was I not worth being heard
And noticed
Was I not special enough
To be saved

I feel the poison coursing through my veins
Attacking body and mind
But nobody sees it
Cos it isn’t something that shows up on a test
Or can be treated with a pill
And knowing I’m not alone in my struggles
How is that supposed to help me
Should I feel relieved?
Feel a weight fall off my shoulders?
Well that’s wishful thinking
And only pushes me down deeper
And somehow makes me feel that much lonelier