After two years, I say hello

I've been fine, how about you?

Haven't seen you in so long. Have you grew?

I haven't missed you that much, you know.


It's been a while since we fell apart.

It's been a tough ride but that has gone.

Because the world will keep moving on.

And I have finally repaired my heart.


Have you met someone to be by your side?

I haven't but I'm sure you will!

Cause' you have that charm. A magnificent skill.

Invite me to your wedding when you get that bride!


I still think of you. Not as I used to though.

But as one of the best friends I've ever had.

Not as a lover but a fellow comrade.

Someone to walk with through tall snow.


And that's the end, I won't take your time.

But send a letter anytime!

Forever. What a strange thing.
Everlasting. But what will it bring
But even stranger... there’s love.
Something that helps you rise above.


When you’re in love, everything turns.
When they smile, your face burns.
I’m in love. Don’t want to admit.
I don’t want to. Not one bit.


I hate it, by the way.
I’ll hate it till my final day.
But I like it too. Don’t know why.
I want to confess. Not to be shy.


But I can’t. And I hate it.
You know, I should just quit.
My heart says otherwise.
No matter how much my soul cries.


I’ll live with it for a while more.
Until then, you are the one I adore.

It was all so sudden, out of the blue.

The hazy fog lifted and I saw you.

Our eyes. They met and you started to grin.

"Things will get better then they've ever been."


We've got each other until the end.

I know you won't leave. You're my best friend.

You tell me there's no need to be sad.

"You're alive and well. Be glad!"


I'll listen to your advice and keep them here.

I'll repeat them year by year.

"So it's okay" You'd say to me.

"It'll be better. You can live in glee!"

I am out of control.

I feel it in my soul.

I'm tearing apart again.

Tearing apart just like then.


It hurts me so badly,

being stuck in a fake reality.

Not being able to write.

Not able to see the light.


This is all hard to comprehend.

Tell me; When will it all end?

The sun beams down,

Onto the dry ground.

But leaves will soon fly,

Through the navy blue sky.


But soon the leaves will turn to snow.

Fall will come and it will go.

And as the snowflakes fall in my face,

The world is turned into a colder place.


And finally the snow will melt,

And the warmth is once again felt.

Rain will fall but thats alright.

Because soon there will be light.


The seasons will change,

Just like humans will rearrange.

Change if you feel it is right.

Because in the end, you too will be bright.

Looking at the clouds in the sky,

Beautiful, fluffy and white.

Then it turned and started to cry.

It cried and cried with all it's might.


Tears poured onto the streets below,

Soaking the houses and the people around.

Why the sky cried? We may never know,

why the teardrops are hitting the ground.


Did we do something to upset it?

Did we put them in incredible pain?

Probably. That's why they're throwing a fit.

Once their done, it'll be happy again.


Until then, don't speak a word.

Don't want them to flood the world

Days, months and years pass.

So live every moment as your last.

You never know when it'll all end.

You'll never know if you heart will mend.


Love the things that make you, you.

Cherish the things that make you true.

In a moment it could all disappear.

It could all be gone within this year.


So make things last. Even for a little while,

so that in the end, you'll stop and smile.

I wish my dreams were real.

Where sadness is something I wouldn't feel.

Where I'm happy and everyone else is.

Where no one is forgotten in the abyss.


A place where someone's by my side.

Where that someone would never hide.

Somewhere where the silent is heard.

Where the meek will fly like a bird.


This place would be a dream come true.

A place where everyone is less blue.

But I could only dream of this place.

Because it's not real. Not a trace.

I can't see anything anymore.


What was it I was looking for?

E

What am I doing here?

Er

Why am I in so much fear?

Err

Am I breaking down?

Erro

I feel like I am going to drown.

Erro

Everything is disappearing.

Error

Everything is dissolving into an ERROR

Staring at a dark blue sky.

I stand there wondering why.

Why did you leave me all alone?

Leaving me to turn to stone.


Why did you suddenly leave?

God.. why do I have to be so naive?

Of course. You were never there.

Only there to stop and stare.


I was dumb to fall for your flair.

It wasn't fair. It ISN'T fair.

To used be for your entertainment.

Like I was just a temporary replacement.


Not anymore. Nothing will be the same.

I won't let you use me for your game.

It's my turn to be the bad guy.

And if I make you cry,

you'll know the reason why.

What's the point of being here,

if there are so many things to fear?

If no one cares about me,

why should I continue to be?


I'll just end it all right now.

Jumping off the roof. That's how.

Falling quickly, nearing death.

I close my eyes and take my last breath.


A flash of light fills my eyes.

It's time to get rid of all these lies.

Goodbye world, I hope you'll forgive.

But now I have no reason to live.

It may not seem like it at all.

Not the type to be alone and brawl.

But I am. I'm exactly that person.

Thy type that feels like a burden.


Burden to every single friend of mine.

Burden to those who ask if I'm fine.

I feel like a complete waste of space.

No way I was meant for this place.


It's terrible, really, it does ****.

This life is draining. I'm out of luck.

I'm a burden to everyone.

I'm sure they'd rather see me gone.


So I'll do that. I'll disappear.

Somewhere far away from here.

I'm fighting demons in my head.

It fights me and straps me to my bed.

It's weird. It's really strange,

that this feeling will never change.


I can't give up just yet. Not now.

I'll keep going, though I don't know how.

I'll find a way to get rid of this thing.

Even if it hurts. Even if it'll sting.


And though I know I may never win,

I will never give up. I will never give in.

If I could fly away from this place,

I would fly and see your face.

I would take the sadness and destroy it.

I'd put you together, bit by bit.


I'd help you in every way.

I'd help you day after day.

I'll wash the pain out of your mind,

so that happiness you will find.


Even if you don't need it, you do.

Because I know you better than you know you.

Left alone in the dark.

Left to be eaten by the shark.

Should I stay here?

I should I disappear?


If I'll be forgotten forever,

might as well sleep whenever.

No one will remember me.

So just leave me be.


No one will remember who I was.

Their memory of me will all be fuzz.

But it's fine for my I guess.

Because I am a big mess.


So I'll be forgotten. It's okay.

Guess they'll forget me when I'm far away.

I did it. I tore it down.

The things I look at and frown.

It wasn't always this way.

I used to love them until that day.


I want to scream, shout and cry.

But I can't and I don't know why.

I feel empty, day by day.

I try to tell but never know what to say.


They'll say I'm pretending, it's not real.

But how do they know how I feel?

So I wear a mask to hide the pain.

If I'm the "real me", what's there to gain?


Sadness, guilt, and disappointment. That's it.

So I'll wear that mask. I can do it.

But I want to help them, people like me.

To help them be who they want to be.


Help them achieve something they dream of.

Help them grow wings and soar above.

I'll help them all. Then maybe I,

could be helped too and bid these thoughts goodbye.

I did it. I tore it down.

The things I look at and frown.

It wasn't always this way.

I used to love them until that day.


I want to scream, shout and cry.

But I can't and I don't know why.

I feel empty, day by day.

I try to tell but never know what to say.


They'll say I'm pretending, it's not real.

But how do they know how I feel?

So I wear a mask to hide the pain.

If I'm the "real me", what's there to gain?


Sadness, guilt, and disappointment. That's it.

So I'll wear that mask. I can do it.

But I want to help them, people like me.

To help them be who they want to be.


Help them achieve something they dream of.

Help them grow wings and soar above.

I'll help them all. Then maybe I,

could be helped too and bid these thoughts goodbye.

All the steps we’ve walked.
All the jokes we shared.
All the tears we cried.
All the pain we felt.

We endured it
We felt it
Together
No matter what

We agreed on that.
Didn’t we?
Our little promise,
Of childhood hopes.

But time has taken its toll
And now, you are gone.
Taken away
But you’re not looking back

No matter how hard I try
I can never forgot you
No matter how hard I try
I can’t get over you

After all the steps we’ve taken
I’m trying to erase how far we’ve walked in miles.
Are you also trying?
Or am I the only one?

I am living but deceiving.

I am dying but still breathing.

I am deaf but hear a voice.

I am chained but still have a choice.

I am confused yet I know,

that the calmest people can be ******.

I never know what to write.

I'm trying but I can't win the fight.

This "thing" prevents me from thinking.

Sometimes I feel like breaking.


I don't know what to write anymore.

I can't write just like before.

This writers block is getting to me.

Once this is over, I'll go on a writing spree.

If you're feeling sad,
A smile is all that we need,
To start feeling glad.

If you are angry,
Try talking to your best friend.
Then you might be calm.

If you are happy,
That is a wonderful thing!
Be glad you're alive!

Why mourn day after day,

if the pain will never go away.

Why hold on to something that's gone?

Why can't they just move on.


Let go of all the things you had.

If you did that, I'd be glad.

So don't stay inside and cry.

You need to learn how to say goodbye.


Think of others who care.

They are happy and have plenty to spare.

Forget me. I have never mattered.

No one wants their hearts to be shattered.


So learn how to let go.

It's pretty simple you know.

"Are you okay?"

They always say.

"I'm fine." I reply.

But you know, I lie.


I lie that I'm glad.

I lie that I'm not sad.

They never know what's inside.

They never know what I hide.


I lie and say that I'm filled with joy.

I lie and say my demon isn't trying to destroy.

I lie about a lot of things.

And you know, false happiness it brings

I can't see. I can't hear.

I can't tell how I feel.

But it's okay... it's okay,

I'll live another day.


I can't hear a word you speak,

I won't admit or I'll sound weak.

But it's okay... it's okay,

I'll live another day.


I'll live another day.

If I lose all colours

Will you still be there?

Or will you leave me alone

And hurt me?

You're on your own, nowhere to go.

Where to run, you just don’t know.

Scared, crying and lying to yourself.

Leaving all you love on the shelf.


You’ll be okay, I swear.

Whenever you need me, I’ll be there.

Just call out when you can’t stand.

I’ll be there to hold you hand.


You’ll never be alone.

You can make this world your own.

I think you're the one for me.

You help me be who I want to be.

I thank you for all you've done.

You taught me how to have fun.


I envy you. You're full of love.

You told me I could rise above.

I like you. I don't know why.

You want me to be honest, not shy.


I don't want to lose you. Now or ever.

You make everything around me better.

So we can do it. Me and you.

Together, there's nothing we can't do.

Memories fade but never truly go.

I comes back like the falling of snow.

Painful ones and ones that are good.

They come back just as they should.


Even if it's bad, it'll come again.

It comes to remind you of the pain.

Memories of people who didn't care to stay.

The ones who were good, then started to stray


Do you remember the good times we had?

Sometimes I close my eyes, searching for your hand.

I look into the clouds above.

Looking for you, my love.



But I can't find you. I can't see,

the happy memories of you and me.

"Move on"

All we can do is

Say

We're fine

Even if we're not okay

It's not good

Keep lying

We can't

Snap out of it

It's a bad habit

Can't get rid of it

But you

Keep trying

Keep going

Just stop and

Look around

No one's there

Don't think that

They'll be there for you.



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A happy girl I once was.

Now I look back and it's all fuzz.

Then you can into my sight,

and tried to help me with all your might.


But you went away from here.

I look back now and shed a tear.

You're not dead, I know that for sure.

You left and knew you were my cure.



You're out there somewhere in the world,

When I find you, my life will be turned.

But maybe you left for a reason.

Maybe you didn't want to deal with my demon.


Maybe you got tired of all this.

Maybe you wanted to live in bliss.

Maybe you hate me. But I need you to know.

You need to know that I love you and won't let you go.

Have you ever felt afraid and alone?

Like you've been left all on your own?

Like you're on the verge of crying every day,

like you lie to yourself that you're okay.


Don't worry. Someone will reach out to you

They'll try to help you. It's true.

You won't be alone anymore.

There's so much more left in store.


Life is beautiful. Trust me!

You can be whoever you want to be!

So you're not alone. Not now or ever.

You can smile and laugh whenever.


You can do it. Never doubt yourself.

Put away those thoughts on the shelf.

In the past, we had good times.

Made mistakes and cried.

We laughed and lied.

Got hurt but said we were fine.


Some dwell on the past all day.

Some leave it be and carry on.

Some think and regret form dusk till dawn.

“Past is the past” Some will say.


While that is true, it may cause pain.

The past can hurt when you,

don’t let go of what you know.

When you think again and again.


The past hurts and haunts.

Memories you can never re-live.

Things you worked hard to give.

It’s scary how our minds taunts.


Some are are trapped in the past. Never to get out.

No matter how much they scream and shout.

Remember that promise long ago?

After that, you seemed to glow.

Day and night I was by you.

At you side, the time flew.


The promise is always in my mind.

Those words that I long to find.

That night, we swore to stay,

by each others sides till' the last day.


So I'll do that. Of course I will.

Those holes in your heart I'll try to fill.

I'll stay by you, I promise.

Together, we can live in bliss.

Cross my heart, and I'll hope to die.

I promise to never let you go.

Even when things get low,

you'll never have to cry.


Together we can walk along this road.

I've got your back if you've got mine.

We'll help each other to shine.

We'll help each other to crack the code.


We'll walk along this road together.

Never letting each other down.

Never letting each other frown.

Promise to stay forever.


We can stay until the dawn.

When time seems to slow,

it's so beautiful you know.

Stay up until the stars have gone.


Walk down this road side by side.

Together, we won’t have to hide.

Same friends, same town.

Same family who'll never let me down.

Same house, same rooms.

Same party and birthday balloons.


Everything will stay the same.

Even the people who as for me name.

Everything the same. Just how I like it.

I like it more than I can admit.


If things stayed like this forever,

the same old things won't end whenever.

Colours blur right before my eyes.
I can finally see through these lies.
Am I dying? No. It can’t be.
All I ever wanted was to be free.

Is this my fate? To be like this?
To be unloved? To not be missed?
To be the way that I am right now,
Isn’t good. I need to change, but how?

Changing the way I look and feel.
So that nothing will ever be real.
Change the way I talk to others.
Change the way I see the colours.

See the colours in a new light.
See the ways I can win the fight.
See the colours as others do.
See everything as lies rather than true.

Take away the colours of honesty.
Take away the things that bleed.
Take away the joy of our lives.
To make us sharp just like knifes.

Up in the sky and all around,

you came to me without a sound.

But then you were gone, out of sight.

It suddenly turned dark. No more light.


You disappeared with all of the love.

Disappeared into the clouds above.

I want to find you. Whatever it'll take.

I'll go and keep going until I break.


I promise I'll find you and bring you here.

So don't cry. There's nothing to fear.

You were the shelter to my storm.

You saved me from the outside threat,

and inside you kept me warm.

Together, we watched the sun set.


In your arms I felt safe from,

the raging storm outside.

Wondering  what we will become,

of me if you left my side.


But for now, can we stay like this?

Until the storm outside goes away,

let's continue this everlasting bliss.

Please. Could you stay?

Leave the past to the past.

Because it hurts to be reminded

Of the time I was blinded

By the dark shadow you cast