I'm filled with anger and resentment for what you did to me.
The cheating, lies, and betrayal even after you got down on one knee
you used to be my everything, day in and day out
now we're nothing but strangers with memories, without a doubt.
you've been the source of my suffering all this time
you led me on, pulled me in, only to break me again once you hit your prime
I told you that I'd never forgive you
But I find that it's the only way for me to forget you too.

I will see you again, with her
but I will feel no emotion
because what we once had is way beyond a blur
It once felt like i was drowning in the ocean's deep abyss with everything unspoken
but don't cry over spilt milk
I used to drown thinking of all the horrible things you did to me
Now without you I'm floating on clouds of silk
and you're far too spoiled at this point, wouldn't you agree?

your feelings for me are twisted and unlisted
yet you're the person who keeps crossing my mind
I can't say that I never resisted
to keep our strings from being intertwined
but I know
the version of you that I knew so well
is no longer my precious freak show
you aren't my favorite thing for show-and-tell
anymore

How do people become distant so quickly;
Why do people feel heartbreak?
What are they thinking when they say they mean things sincerely
This disconnection keeps me awake
how do you fall out of love?
why is it that I'm trying to detach from you for god's sake,
what am I doing here, just being let go of?

every now and then
I look back at your video logs
and see you expressed your love for me again
and remembering how we chased each other like dogs
It's been two months now since you left
why won't these tears stop
why do I remember the beat of your heart when I'd lay on your chest
every sweet memory of you in every drop
these emotions are killing me
please tell me why am I still so attached to you
is it because I keep remembering how you got down on one knee
and proposed out of the blue
today I remembered something you said in one video
I hesitated to go find it
I tried telling myself no
but now here I lie, in this pit

you called me another womans name
who is she?
she has the same name as the girl who was contacting you
all this time
you cheated on me, I know it
so please get out of my head
please get out of my life
i never want to see your face ever again
or hear your voice, the sound that shattered my heart
so please
I beg of you
get out