I found out I was expecting...
I wasn't sure how to feel...
At first it was a bit concerning....
and then it felt extremely surreal...

I found out I was expecting....
I was later filled with pure joy....
for I knew soon I'd hear a little heart pitter pattering....
and then pondered at the question, little girl or little boy?.....

I found out I was expecting...…
Our hearts were made complete....
Seeing our little jelly bean quickly growing....
and waiting anxiously for December so we can finally meet!....

I'm not ready, I'm not prepared, the thought of little pitter patters makes me scared..... The thought of labor, the thought of pain, makes me want to run the other way!
Am I expecting, or am I not, not knowing for certain has my stomach in knots..... what if I am, what if I'm not, having someone call me momma is one crazy thought!

L  LovelySmilez he nick named her because

O* On her darkest days her smile shinned

V Very bright  like sunshine ray's

E Even though she doubted her own natural beauty

L Laughing with her you'd realize

Y You'd fall for that naturally smiling cutie

S She with held the perfect smile you know the type that

M Made you smile thru your pain and her smile

I Incredibly would stay imbedded in your brain

L Little did she know that the impact of her smile and

E Even her unique energy she gives out will

Z Zap you from hundreds of miles

Conoci a {M}i angel en un Verano lleno de amor [061818],  

Sin saber que llegaria tan pronto un {A}dios [070918],

Muchas aventu{R}as tuve a su lado,
empezando con la feria bajo la luna llena del verano [062318],

En el {T}elefono platicabamos hasta el amanecer,
en esas dos semanas, mi Corazon lleno de placer [062418-070818],

Mirando "Los {I}ncreibles" con mi hermanito en el cine,
tu mirada se distraia de la pelicula al reirme  [062818]
  
Una tarde en Chuck-e-Cheese co{N}ociste a mis papas,
sentia cuanto me querias pues lo hiciste por volontad [070518]

Me pego un depression no entedia el motivo,
lloraba sin Consuelo mi Corazon sentia un vacio [070618-070818]

Lunes en la noche espere que me llamaras,
me dormi triste y en un llanto, nunca pense que se te olvidara…
te mande mi ultimo mensaje tu mensaje de buenas noches,
al recordar este moment, siento como el Corazon se me rompe [070918]

Martes en la tarde recibi la peor llamada,
Mi Amorcito Corazon se habia convierto en mi Angel de la Guardia [0710*18]

Sabes ese refran que dice "no sabes lo que tienes hasta que se te va"
Es mas que comprobado que es una triste realidad!


Hoy, Manana, y Siempre en mi vive tu recuerdo,
Te amo para siempre Handsomes espero anciosa nuestro encuentro!

I wrote a letter once, a letter for my mom
it was filled with deep emotion, a letter for the strong!

"A developing girl growing in all places, boys constantly attacking cruelty on their faces. Sasquatch, big foot, gorilla they taunted, a poor vulnerable developing girl they haunted.
popular girls: you're dark ugly and fat
popular boys: mustache unibrow, why you look like that?!?
silently she wiped her tears every day & every night, her heart in constant pain, her brain slowly giving up the fight. laughing & smiling while dark thoughts took over her brain; drown yourself, hang yourself, hurry before you go insane. its finally her breaking point goodbye & farewell to all, she sits to write her letter to explain it all!"

I wrote a letter once, & stuck it between my bears
I hugged my mom so tight, she never knew it was my farewell!

"I parted from her loving arms trying no to cry
she handed me a positive test, I knew it wasn't my time!
I promise to love you and protect you from everything that is bad, I'm going to be the best big sister any brother could ever have! I grabbed that letter, you know the letter full of pain, I threw that letter to the trash, had to be love on the brain!"

I wrote a letter once, a letter for my mom to read
it never got delivered, for a special baby brother seemed to intervene!

Hasta el Corazon mas fiel y sincero
se convierte frio y rigido
despues de tantos mal tratos....