Ugly, and lame that's how they describe me. Their words still linger in my mind like a preachers sermon. But then I look up and I see that light, and I acknowledge that I am more than what you see.
Because I am strong, I am beautiful and that's the truth. My body may not be to standards that you hold so dearly but the way I am is the way I'm proud of so all the hate that you throw my way will never affect me ever again because the only love I truly need is self love.

I HATE YOU, I want you dead.
You don't deserve to live, you ruined my life, jails not enough.
I hope you get jumped on the daily, I hope they stab when they jump you, then I'll be happy.
Knowing you're dead is all I want...
Or do I?
Maybe I don't, what if I'm just
Saying this cause I'm hurting, maybe I still don't want to accept reality.
I'm sorry that's not what I want at all I don't know what I was saying.

Do you fear death?
I don't.
When the time comes I'll be ready, why people get scared when the time comes.
Nobody can live forever, so why does this come as a surprise.
I hate to be a **** about it, but you have to **** it up and deal with the fact that you will die, so grow up it's going to happen.

Snakes, spiders, ghosts.
Heights, clowns, death.
No, my fear goes deeper than that, something way deeper and meaningful than all of that.
Some may understand, so may not sadly, but I'm afraid of losing the one person that knows me the best.
The person that keeps me from doing anything dumb, the one person that seems to be there when nobody is there, the only person I can talk to when I can't talk to anyone else.
My deepest fear is losing myself.

Now this has to come out. What makes a straight person better than a gay person, huh?
Absolutely nothing ok, we are all the same no matter what.
Now before people start preaching to me with you're Bible quotes and how it's a sin, did God not say he loves all his children, and did he not make us equally. Are we not all citizens of the same counties no matter where we are, now if you have anything that can counter what I said feel free to let me know, I am straight but I do support gays.

Now this has to come out. What makes a straight person better than a gay person, huh?
Absolutely nothing ok, we are all the same no matter what.
Now before people start preaching to me with you're Bible quotes and how it's a sin, did God not say he loves all his children, and did he not make us equally. Are we not all citizens of the same counties no matter where we are, now if you have anything that can counter what I said feel free to let me know, I am straight but I do support gays.

Son, I love you.
I want you to be smart, strong, brave, kind, and loving. Protect you're mom and sister, and show them respect. Embrace who you are and don't forget your roots, don't hold grudges and always be forgiving, be a people person and don't be shy. That's all I ask of you son.
Now, daughter,I love you with all my heart and and will always protect you. I want you to be kind, generous, loving, and smart. Try not to give your brother any problrms, and listen to your mother, she knows what she's talking about. You guys mean the world to me and I only want the best for you.