my mother looks at me like
a wound on her arm, unsightly
and gushing hot velvet blood
she buries me in bandages
she can't stand to watch me bleed
she can't stand me.
so she waits until i scab
until i am cold and hard and tender
until i eventually fall away
05.28.23
she never wanted children. she never wanted me. she will never stop blaming me for that, because blaming herself would ruin her. blaming herself will make her a failure - and then it's all for nothing. so blame me. you might as well. just ignore me until i fall away. it's okay, mom.