i wish i knew my worth
but it comes and goes as it pleases
like a tide pulling in and out
but i am nothing like the sea
i am a drought
waiting for rain and lemon poppy colored pollen seeds

Your naked body
Pressed on mine
We kissed

I thought that
I should feel
Something

Thrill, euphoria
Lust, love
Or bliss

But no
I felt
Nothing

I noticed you were falling out of love with me when you started hating my music. My food started tasting less like home and your touch became less frequent.

I really love the smell of your skin
And how your voice reminds me of soft rain fall
Your warmth feels like a wildfire that burns to trail across me
A fire so bright it smothers out every ghostly shadow that reeks of jealousy

I no longer contain a flame like yours
I've turned into a cool river of blues and greens
Meanwhile your lovely peachy orange and sunflower yellows pair with mine
I lap upon moss infested rocks and I nourish flowers that bloom into beautiful beds against the soft shore line
You make life grow while I incubate it
You are the sun that basks natures seedlings
We are so different yet we come together so sweetly like bees and honey

And when you lay your head down for the moon to rise
My river slows down to a hold
The fish cry for you every cold bitter hour
The flowers wilt without you
And tears stream down my face waiting for your warmth to dry them for me

When I first saw you my heart felt like it was being pealed open like a citrusy orange
It's juices sprayed lightly onto my lips
Your eyes were at first a soft foggy gray that melted to an earthy brown
Your skin was a warm buttery color that toasted like chest nuts
And as your hands grew to fit into mine my soul felt bonded to you
As if you took a needle in the middle of night and began sewing yourself to me
Our spirits like a tightly knit blanket
My love for you could out grow these universes and stars
And if your light died out so would mine