It seems as we age
We drifted apart
The love we shared was
meaningless.
Now I feel
Empty
Because I know I am
Alone

The ticking
Of the accursed clock
Is a constant lullaby
That weighs heavy
On my beating heart
Each tick of that clock
Draws near to the day of
Eternal Slumber
Where I would be left with
Nothing but the clothes
On my back
And
Alone .

Do you ever have those
Dreadful moments
Where you thought
To blow up the world
Because nothing is going your way.
You curse the air you breathe
But the words come out in
Nimble squawks.
You try to bottle up
Every feeling you ever had
Because you know
If there was any slightest
Examination of your mind
You would be sent to jail
Or the psychiatric ward.
Anger the demon
That feeds off of every word
You said in past years
Is the reason behind many of these
Complex emotions.
We may try to stop it.
But eventually
It will consume us and hurt
Those who are near

Anxiety  sneaks up
Like a snake in the greenlands of Africa
It's poisonous fangs elongated ready to
strike

Anxiety knocks on the door
Hoping that we would answer
His creepy smile
Hoping that we'd befriend him
And when we do
chokes us to unconiousness  

Anxiety please leave me be
I can't stop thinking
I can't breathe

As a I child
I was ignorant
To the morbid society
That I lived in.
I was ignorant to the
Death that chocked me
Ignorant to the love that
Left me.
But now, I am not a child
I am an adult
Ready to beat the depression
That surrounds me with
A bright smile.

What is this
We work hard to
Be the perfect creature
We are all beautiful in God's
Holy and Divine eyes.

My love,
What broke you?
You are afraid to come
Out your depressed shadow
Afraid to show me that smile
Too tired to even laugh
Your beauty is no longer shown
In the crevice of you loud personality
I miss it.

Sometimes its good
To start the cycle over
To erase all the troubles
The subsequently haunt your
Dawning future
And just be free
Even its for an inkling
Just start over.

I can’t take it any more
The clicking clocks
Drive me ****** insane
I am bored
I am going insane
I am inside
Talking to myself
I can’t even ensure that
This is my present reality
I am legit bored

The woman in tears
Because the man she loved
Hit her once more
Without one inch of remorse.
They, who were in love
From the beginning of time itself
Now have two kids,
But he seems to forget
That they are watching innocently
From the chairs beside them.
She who loved him for so long
Turned his love into hatred.
Why?
Because he has been broken,
Broken by the pressure
Of life itself.
Someone,
Anyone help this woman before its too late.

I am caged
In the midst of society
Living the life I despise
Hearing those who complain
And those who fight to survive.
We divulge in our imaginative beings
In attempts to become free
Only to be dragged back to reality
By the life we attempt to seek.

I am captured by,
Society.
I am coerced into making
A change.
Forced into acting normal.
Forced into changing my personality,
Just to fit in.

I want to be different
But I am captured,
By this fast paced world,
Where being different,
Means being an outcast.

I will fight my captors,
Defeat the norm,
Play a different tune.
Become someone not changed by
Society.
Become not captured.

The creepy smile
Slithers down the hallway
He is searching
For the naughty
To gobble them up.
He is watching
And waiting
Hoping you slip up
Because
He is hungry.
Be careful those of young
Your days are numbered
Christmas is coming
And he is watching
And waiting.

Can you here it
The ticks on the clock
Making the noise
Indicating time is drifting away
You can't catch this clock
Because its too late
Now the Reaper of Death
Is waiting for you at the gate.

I owe myself the
Pleasure
Of confessing to you.
I loved you,
Since that first smile
On that first trip,
Remember it in grade 3.
You looked at the seals
Dancing at the gleaming waves.
Screaming in happiness
When the water touched
Your skin.

As you grew older
That smile seemed to fade
The screams of happiness faltered
Your bright eyes
Masked by glares.

All i want is the return
Of that happy child
The one from grade 3
The one I fell in love with.

My love is confused
It is entangled with depression
Anxiety and non committal views
My love shows me nothing but pain
And loneliness
Shows me my worthless existence can
Still be awaken
And greeted by a blank canvas of
Meaningless lonely adventure

They bumpy
Crunchy chocolate
Chip cookie
Oh how delicious!
With each bite
I die a little inside
Because soon
This moment
Will end

Its crazy how everyone
Tries to be different
But are the same

Its crazy how
People dream of peace
And use violence To get this

Its crazy how
Religion can bring people together
And divide everyone to the masses

Once again I’m here
stuck at the crossroads
dreaming of chasing
the dreams that are forever
Fleeting
bounded by the comfort of the past  
where unhappiness reigned free

With path should I choose
It so hard to be free
I just want to take a path
That lets me be me

This world is cruel,‏
Unforgiving,
And unbearable.
Humans have to strive,
but deprive,
Care but destroy.
We consume,
without thinking of others.

I don't think it's acceptable
For me, myself and I
To form endless tears
Over you who means nothing.
I am greater, stronger and better than that.

The world
is filled with
My painful woes
Torturing me
Each day
With reminders
of what you did.
I am cold
and broken
Unable to comprehend
the situation I am involved in
Shattered by your
False Sense of hope and freedom.
Don't look for me
Because by the time
You find me
I will be gone
Running from the *Dark

I am blinded by
Your love
And unable to
Sing our favorite song
Because you left me
Weeping
On the eggshells
We call a relationship.
Now I am sick
Mentally
Unable to grasp
Reality
Because you showed
Me the true meaning
Of a Dark Fantasy

The inevitable end
to all life
Travelling too close
For comfort
Its callous hands reach
And touch the worthy
And unworthy
We try so hard to escape
His claws
But death always
Catches us

I'm falling slowly
Deeper into madness
Becoming obsessive
Crazed with feelings
of insecurity
I want to *****
the happiness that
I have injected into
my veins
Can I cry?
I hate seeing myself
this way
I hate seeing myself
Can I cry?
Because I want to be free
from the shackles
That bound me to this Earth

You change
When you see others.
You become evil,
and sinister.
I try to compensate
for my faults,
but all you see is
my Destruction

Become my the reason
I retaliate against this
Crazy world
Where guns and violence are
My protection
And love is my weakness.
I am broken by the daily
Sickness
That runs in my veins
Causing me to change
Each stupid day.

Become my soilder
That opens my heart
Which bears much evil,
Including the sins of my ancestry.
Your the only one I can trust
As I dwindle from my sanity
Because I am a devil
That needs redemption.

They say opposites attract,
But I can't say the same for me and you,
We are completely the same
which makes our hatreds
Grow stronger.
Why?
Why do we still remain merged,
Once we came to that realization,
That we were never meant to be,
We struggle to keep the relationship going,
We destroy ourselves,
To create the facade of happiness.

I am different,
And proud of this.
With this difference,
I make accomplices,
Who are different.
I don't care if you,
Call me different,
Because I love my,
Difference.

For me to respect you,
You must earn my respect.
For me to trust you,
You must earn my trust.
For me to be honest with you,
You must be hones.t
For me to love you,
You have to earn my love.

Emotions are useless
They bring forth words
expressions, and attitudes
We wish to dispel.
Is it better to not care?
Is it better to become a big pile of meat?
Unaffected by what people do or think
Because emotions are useless.

My plush buddy,
Which acted as a knight,
Is ready to hug me,
When I want to fight.

My dolls and men
Which laze around all day
Come through for me
When I want to play

My insects and bands,
Which decorate the house,
Helps to scare my mom,
Like a mouse.

I love my toys,
They bring joys,
And laughter,
And playful banter.

The golden sun
Sets on the oceanic view
Kissing the traveler
That fumbled his way
through the soft sand.
The traveler mourned
for the touch of his
spouses warm embrace
But all he could
do was watch her
From his unearthly plane

I want to meet you
I want to kiss you
I dream of our life
Together, forever
I admit it
I have feelings for you
But that term is
Foreign
I’m scared
My feelings may no longer
Be one of flirtatious exploits
But of obsession.

Blood reigns from
My flickering eyelash
As he tells me it's "okay"
But how can it be
When each day I am
Grovelling
To your stainless shoes
In my pain
You come to hush and soothe
But it turns to stinging and crying
Am I not the one you love
Am I not the one you adore
I guess not
Because even though
We are both freaks of nature
An abomination by modern society
I have come to turn
That ore mature love
Into consistent anger
Now it's my turn to cause pain
Because my fire has re kindled
And I am ready to start
Burning your life down.

I always wanted
To be a fish.
To swim with agility
and grace.
To roam the water,
And dance with the waves.
To swim around the world
And back.

But if I am a fish,
I would be eaten too quickly,
by predators lurking,
in the shadows of the deep sea.
I would get poisoned,
or poached,
or suffer from global warming,
Each day I would wait for,
Something to destroy me.

Unless i am born again,
as a fish,
I can not
be a Fish
But I want to save the fish,
of the vast ocean.
They are
Agile
Graceful creatures
and I dream of being a fish.

**** my emotions
That I hold dear
Because no one seems
To adhere to my feelings.

**** the people around me
Because they ignore my
presence and call me
If necessary

**** relationships
Because it messes up my
heart and mind if there is
a deep separation

**** the world
who feigns peace
But is on the brink of
natural war.

**** everything
and anything meant to destroy
The life we hold so dear

This is the beginning,
Where everything started,
So lets,
Lets start over,
Become reborn with me,
Become my beginning,
become my Genesis.

Gone,
Taken from our midst,
Our grasp.
We waited so long
For her arrival
And now all we do is mourn
Because we were careless
And she slipped through
Our glossed fingertips.
All we can do is cry,
Cry to God
Asking, no Begging to bring
Her back.
But its too late
No miracles can change time
She is gone

Goodnight my love,
Even though the moon's
Greeting comes
to separate us,
I will always love you.
Our bond that was
Formed by Fate
Can never be broken
Because with each
Setting sun
You enter
My dawdling mind
And my heart begins
To sing songs
Like the birds of
early morn

The willow tree
That I sit under
Beckons me to sleep
It holds me tight
Like the memories
I dearly keep.
But once in a while
It brings me despair
Causing me tears.
I couldn't handle
The thought of your
Blood shed and tears.
Instead of facing
The dark abyss
I lay dangling
From the tree's
Branch

Like a thief
My heart was poached
Causing me to fall
In the spiral of
Love.
But I did not know
The thief was evil
Causing me pain
Each day.
Shambling my hear
For the satisfaction
Of his own.
Never,
Never have I thought
I could be whole once more.
Then I met another thief
Who glued the
pieces one by one.

I can't keep doing this
Holding on to the fleeting Dream
Of those whom I hold dear.
I can't keep living for them
I can't keep loving them.
I can only enjoy the precious time
We have left
Desperately replaying the good times
The times when things were so joyous
Not filled with unrelenting sorrow.