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26.3k · Nov 2014
Eyes full of Lies
I am myself Nov 2014
Blank,
Dead,
Empty,
Your eyes

Look
At
Me
I die

Break
Me
Down
You lie

All
I
See
Your eyes
15.6k · Nov 2014
Confused
I am myself Nov 2014
I cooked for you
Just things
That you
Like

Unfortunately
I'm good
At
It

You would rather
Eat my food
Than
Kiss my lips

Some
Days
I
Wonder
10.3k · May 2014
Ass
I am myself May 2014
***
Maybe dad is right
Toxicity
It seems to be my enemy
And on a scale of healthy
I am not sure
Where this would be

You hurt me
But its okay
You're my best friend
The person I care about
More than anyone
That matters right?

I just want
For you
To be happy
And not hateful
Yet you insist
On being a ****
5.3k · Feb 2012
My Niece
I am myself Feb 2012
Light of my life

Shining bright destroying darkness

Her laughter is healing

Smiles mischieviously

Or just full of happiness

Silly little girl

Ruler of my heart

Dances with flowers

Sniffs puppy dogs

Blue green eyes sparkle with laughter

Babbles until you understand

Dimples form

Mirth overflowing

My name always on her lips

Calling me even when apart

This princess

My treasure

An adorable Klingon

Runs around blowing kisses

Singing, talking always making noise

Sweetest sound in the world

Curious, afraid of nothing

Exploring everything

Climbing tables instead of trees

Someday the tallest trees will be yours to conquer

But for now

Rest peacefully in my arms
5.1k · Apr 2014
Selfishness
I am myself Apr 2014
Let
Me
In

I
Would
Never
Hurt
You

You're
So
Scared

Not
Everyone
Will
Break
You

You're
My
Reason

I
Will
Always
Protect
You

Never
Do
You
Any
Harm

I
Care
For
My
Own

You
Are
My
Heart
Okay?
4.0k · Nov 2014
I am
I am myself Nov 2014
I am
Says my heart
Wait!
It stutters,
His

My eyes
In my head
Have noticed
A man, No
Not him

I search
Him?
No
Not his!
They cry

Finally
In the corner
A boy, my age,
Quiet, shy, sleeping alone
My heart saw you

I am
His
2.8k · Nov 2014
Detached
I am myself Nov 2014
Absence
Makes the heart grow
Fonder
What about my mind?

I've lost connection
You are gone
I can't feel you
Reach you

I feel so **** lost
I hate this part of me
Dependent
Needy

I don't want to
I can't
Need
You

But once again
I can't help
But reach out
For you
2.8k · Feb 2012
Spiderwebs
I am myself Feb 2012
People in essence are spiderwebs

Each so fragile and beautiful

Yet so strong and full of purpose

Each molecule is connected by a strand of the web

Each thought intersected

Woven into another

Yet separate, unique

There are no two alike

Though many are bland

So distasteful

Never living out their full potential

Instead being destroyed by tiny things

The fears and doubts that eat away at the delicate strands



Still someway somehow the rare few so complicated

Protected so carefully by their creators

Manage to hold their true form

Even for a second in time

They capture drops of inspiration like dew

As the sunlight fades the useless webs left unprotected

It also catches hold of the glimmer of inspiration

Suddenly transformed into a shining brilliant treasure

The web can maintain these inspirations

Build them into anything they desire

Or they may allow them to simply lay in shadow

Weighing them down

Until they come crashing from their position of glory

To a simple puddle of ruin
2.6k · Feb 2012
Crackhead
I am myself Feb 2012
You wake me up

Yelling and screaming

Clawing scratching

Demanding satisfaction

So stubborn full of your own desires

Pull me from slumber by the roots of my hair

Searching frantically for the fix you cannot find

Violence is the sign of a true addict

Cursing and blaspheming you tear into my skin

Failing to find it you resort to torture

Once I relent you greedily ****** up your coveted prize

Leave me

My usefulness has been outlived

Your claim to it is only that it is yours

Never thinking of the risks or problems it brings

So addicted you can't survive a day without it

Constantly craving

You forget the world

Come back to the living it isn't too late
2.5k · Feb 2012
Pudding
I am myself Feb 2012
What I want

Talk to me

Maybe I can help

Tell me what is going on

In that maze that is the male mind

I am lost in the confusion of your signals

Do you want me?

Or am I a lamp post?

Do you enjoy talking to me?

Or am I a substitue for someone better?

Such as a moose

You've completely addled my mind

It is made up of jello

Pudding is better

So it is now made of pudding

That means trying to think

Is like swimming in pudding!

How would you feel if someone made you swim in pudding all the time?

Let me tell you

It isn't always pleasant

Gets in your ears it does

Now why was I rambling?

Oh yes!

You you you!!!

Make up your mind will you!

So I can stop being full of pudding!
2.4k · Jul 2014
Not caring
I am myself Jul 2014
I keep on not caring and thinking hey it's fine
And for a while it really is
But then there's this little smile or this one special laugh
And all of the not caring just falls to bits
2.4k · Feb 2012
Icicle
I am myself Feb 2012
A false friend

Such a contradiction

Either false

Or friend

Choose wisely

If friend is your choice

You may have my life

I would lay it down for you

But if you choose false

Never will we recover

No matter if you change your mind

Its over

I'm not so harsh

I simply refuse

To take you back

I won't be used

Such a fragile melty thing

An icicle

Holding the ability

To stab you in the heart

Or  dissolve

Nourishing delicate new life

Be cold

Keep to yourself

You won't melt

Just stay eternally the same

As for me

I will melt gladly

If another needs me

How could I deny them?

Feast on winter

Frozen wind

I'm waiting for spring

Warm breezes dance on my skin

Inside the icicle you will forever stay

While I embrace renewal

It's new to me

But change always is

Have you ever tried it?
2.4k · Oct 2014
Tear Soaked Pillow
I am myself Oct 2014
I wake up
There is moisture on my cheek
A sound so broken
Startled me awake
I see
I made it
That sound is me

I was reaching
My hand in the place
Where your head would rest
The tear drop falls
I hear a keening
It's me
I've lost my meaning

It has been so **** long
I've recovered
Over and over
But like an addict
I relapse
I muffle the sound
Don't want the neighbors to know how messed up I am

There are two pillows
One between my legs
Where our legs should be intertwined
Where I can hold it to my chest
I hold it close and it silences my sobs
Unlike you
It will not abandon me

The other is beneath my head
It used to be
A platform
Where we could look at each other
Now it's empty
Listening to the gut wrenching cries
And catching the tears

I still cry
For you
For the closeness I miss
For the comfort I have only ever felt
With You
I whimper in my dreams
My partner shut me out

I don't sleep
You were everything
But now you scarcely even speak
You're leaving me again
And this time
I can't be strong
I can't bear it

You are my sunshine
Through the fog of depression

You are the warmth
In my frozen heart

You make me happy
And then you break me

Please this time

For me

Either stay

Forgive me



Or


Let me break my promise
Because I've tried
And I can't do this
Not with you not filling
Any capacity in my life

In some way I need you
A broken way
Like the young girl who got lost in the thunderstorm
Like I was when you first knew me
Trust me
Confide in me
Let me be your comfortable
As you have always been mine
1.8k · Apr 2014
Gravity
I am myself Apr 2014
It has been
Over a year
A hell of a long time
That To me you've been dear

You are my waking smile
And the dream I have inside
My last thought
When I turn out the light

I have fought for you
I will continue to do so
Because my darling
You make my life beautiful

Yeah whatever
You've made me cry
I couldn't care less
I just want to call you mine

A year ago
That is what you were
I was your moon
You are my sun and stars

In an ever revolving galaxy
You are my center
My air
My source of gravity

You keep me together
When it feels like I'm falling apart
Darling I'm no Indian giver
And I already gave you my heart

I don't want mine back
It's yours to keep
Maybe we could trade though
And then once again I could sleep

Knowing full well
I kept your heart in my chest
I could lay my head down next to yours
And finally rest
1.8k · Nov 2014
Crazy Girl
I am myself Nov 2014
A world created
In my mind
A place where
Not only was I yours
But you were mine

Head trauma
Must have occurred
Hallucinations
Fill my brain
I see them only when you speak

Busted thing
My heart
Idiotic
My mind
Body betrays me

You
Made
Me
Hope.
I die.

Depression crushes
Breaks me down
What can I do
Just
Bury me now
1.8k · Nov 2013
popular girl
I am myself Nov 2013
She smiles
Sparkles in her eyes
Dimples on her cheeks
Aspects of an angel
Wretched and divine

Look in her eyes
Deep down
The chill of death
Her skin so riddled with flaws
A study of the being inside

She walks through the hall
Surrounded by followers
Known and loved by all
But known?
They don't know her

She is full of bitterness
Judgement
Deception
Cruelty
Abundantly flow

Her clothes change frequently
Every hour she is different
She changes her face
And her feelings
Her words constantly lie

This was my closest friend
She shut me out
Humiliated me
Lied to me and about me
Turned my friends against me

I helped her
Befriended her
She was my closest friend
Kindred
Or so I thought

Now I sit in the shadows
My light is a comfort
Hers a blazing fire
She will burn you
Her flames consume you

Do not trust so easy
Do not put your faith in the unknown
Keep your spirit to yourself
Or you will give someone else
The means to break you
1.4k · Dec 2014
Bliss
I am myself Dec 2014
A long time
I was a shell

Not a clam
Or shrimp

Just a plain
Exoskeleton

In this moment
I am full

I could burst
Happiness is divine

This month
Has made me

Glad to be
Alive
1.4k · Oct 2014
Piercings: Fresh Pain
I am myself Oct 2014
I have these piercings
Three of them actually
They're in my cartilage
Just a few months old
Pretty fresh really

They still hurt
Well
They hurt if I lay on them
So I don't
When I'm by myself

When you're here
I don't feel them
I only feel you
Your chest against my back
Your arm around my waist

And then I am alone
And sometimes
Just to remind myself what you do to me
I switch sides
And I know without you I hurt
1.3k · Feb 2012
Hypocrite
I am myself Feb 2012
Yes I am the second choice

Not the first selection

Always here to cure your blues

Left out of the laughter

Cruelty becomes you dear

Hypocrite that you are

You crawl to me with all your fears

Cry louder so they can hear you

Again they melt my heart

She leaves you

So I never will

Once again you are together

When you fight I take your part

Laugh unnaturally

Loud and obnoxious

Misery becomes me

Desertion a fact of life

Glance at me with eyes of pity

If I see it I'll rip out your heart

Blood pounds through my face

Leaving a shameful stain

Battles not of my choosing

For you I will always war

Time nearly expired

Violent to my core

Forgive my many treasons

I forgave you many more
1.3k · Feb 2012
Temper
I am myself Feb 2012
The days grow longer my temper shorter

Houses are built of brick and mortar

Buildings collapse plants die and wither

The only flowers a’ bloom are ragweed and heather

This circle repeats on and on forever

What can we do to change?

To alter it in some way?

When light is closing and the day is done

We’ll ride towards the sunset on the open range

Home comes closer as the light is gone

At the end of the day one fact remains

Tempers still rise and cause great pains

Is it the change in seasons that causes the decline in civility?

Or are we so easily swayed that silly quarrels can ruin a family?

It is better to stop and think before we speak

Than wait until the havoc has been wreaked

Admit you erred when last your temper flared

Like a roaring tempest that resides once the damage is done

Speak up be heard your voice can be the one

That stops the chaos and quiets the shouting voices

And makes loved ones put aside petty annoyances

Loves forgiveness is stronger than any fickle fight

Resolve your problems before the sun goes to bed and you must say goodnight
I am myself Mar 2015
I've been lying on the couch for an hour.
The drink beside me
covered in beads of condensation.
I should've done something today.

I have been avoiding life.
sometimes i can't even get out of bed.
I'm losing a battle.
have i even eaten today?

eh... there's cold pizza in the fridge...
if i can make myself get up.
Not worth it.
Oh. is it nap time again?

I need to be myself.
Focus. Death shouldn't impact me this way.
I have been grieving too long.
But this hurts too much to handle.
1.1k · May 2014
Drawing Blood
I am myself May 2014
I wanted to keep you
Some piece
Something
That was only mine
So I fused your marks with my flesh
Spilling my blood onto the sheets
Maybe this will dull something
Aching and burning
Inside of me
I only hurt
There is nothing else
I'm not good enough
To even help myself
You want to feel so go to her
I guess that makes me feel too
Like a dying ember with it's path gone askew
You are my everything
The sun behind a cloud when it's raining
The words on a page in the book that is all
Every light that guides me
And every shadow in which I fall
You were all I wanted
But I'm not good enough
I'm not enough
Not anything
Just a shattered piece of glass
Drawing my own blood
I am myself Feb 2012
So full of life and laughter

The things of which I am sorely deprived

Are you a demon sent to torture me

Or an angel to show me my faults

If I believed in either it should be a lark

As I know both to be in existence

Indeed I am quite mad

There are infite creatures

Of which you know not

Do not doubt that which you have not seen

Just because you haven't

Doesn't mean its never been

Who is to say

That a Unicorn never grazed

A Phoenix never flew

Lycanthropes have not roamed

Maenads are simple handservants

Quetzalcoatl was merely a serpent

Ney, Not I

Nor can you I dare say

For if you could

By now you would

With clear and direct evidence

Solid as granite

Seeing as you do not come forth

I will assume you have not

Without mincing words

Go crawl back into the hole from whence you came
979 · Apr 2016
Creeping shadows
I am myself Apr 2016
I shouldn't be like this

My life is picking up
Great new job
I'm about to graduate
A loving relationship
The coolest cat ever
I shouldn't be like this

Getting back in shape
Eating right
Making new friends
Getting everything situated
Might've even found a good house
I shouldn't feel this way

I don't feel like I lost someone
Like I'm broken
Or aching
I just... Feel.... Bad
Like I'm a bad person
Who should be happy but can't

It isn't always
Most of the time I am satisfied
I am happy
At peace with my life
Overjoyed in fact
But some days...

When I spend too much time alone,
and lately that's all the time,
I can't fight the shadows;
the feelings that creep into my sunshine
And say "you don't deserve to be happy"
But I really want to be
969 · Dec 2014
Alone
I am myself Dec 2014
I
Don't
Know

I'm
So
Lost

I'm
All
Alone
968 · Jun 2013
The B word
I am myself Jun 2013
Usually genial and kind
Today your cruelty blows my mind

You taunt and tease until I cry
Makes me want to curl up and die

You are the big B
I thought you had my back
Wow... Stupid me

What is the point In
******* with my mind
We all know youre the boss in this joint

All I did was ask for help
Yet you kick me to the curb
Like a useless whelp

Thank you so much for the sensitivity
You inspire my revenge
To be full of creativity
948 · Oct 2014
Depression By Weather
I am myself Oct 2014
The inside of a cloud
A rain cloud
Grey and cold
With drops dripping down

Fog, oh Fog
Still cold and grey
But, instead of the drops;
It is a blurring obscuring thing

Sunshine is too hot
Habilitates lethargy
It's mantra;
Sleep, Sleep; that is all you want

Rainy days
Grey again
Now the drops fall freely
Temperature dropping; it's frigid now

It is cold
Long sleeves a sanctuary
Chills numb after a time
It takes too long though

Spring time's sudden heat
Hinders the appetite
There is no sleep
Nor can one eat

In all weather
The eyes do weep
934 · May 2012
The Sun And Moon
I am myself May 2012
The sun with his ever seeing face
Had never seen a being with such grace
He called to her
Come be my bride!
But she was a harlot
Never will I go to your side!
For days the clouds cried
Endless empty nights
The sun had lost his light
She was as cold as she was lovely
But calculating enough to see the gain
So she took to the sky
I will keep my vow she proclaimed
Never will I cease to cause you pain
My domain is the empty night
To which I will bring a bit of light
If you try to touch me I will make you bleed
Your blood is the cost of such greed
Hastily the sun agreed
But soon he began to crave
A single touch that she gave
At sunset he reached out
The moment his skin contacted hers
He was covered in icy burns
His blood spilled across the sky
In no more time than the blink of an eye
Yet morning and night
He continues to try
To touch the one
Who is his bride
868 · Nov 2014
Breathe
I am myself Nov 2014
My lover is (relax... Breathe)
the black rage
That dwells
In my stomach's pit (breathe. Keep it in)

My lover takes (my breath away)
My love
But can't
Return it (won't)

My lover is (the breath)
The ache, (in my lungs)
The pain (letting me know)
That screams from my soul (I am alive)

My lover gave (me air)
My life to me.
Life is not lived
Without breathing
(Breathe in....
Sigh.... You're here.
Now... I can
Breathe)
865 · Apr 2016
Straight
I am myself Apr 2016
My hair is as curvy
as my body.
Today I straightened
everything out.
I don't think straight suits me

When you are born
with hair this wild
you shouldn't ever
try to tame it.
Do what comes naturally

There is no point
in trying to straighten
something that was meant
to be anything but.
As long as it is you

I say: Do It
850 · Nov 2014
One
I am myself Nov 2014
One
Twisted limbs
Intertwined
Tangled bodies
Side by side

The is no me
Nor is there you
Together
We are one

Where do I end
Or is that
Where you begin
Finding out would be a sin
835 · Feb 2012
The Process Of Terror
I am myself Feb 2012
In deep water

Simplest thing in the world

Terrifying Midge

Hint about snakes

Whispers of Gar

Such subtle implanting

Truly an art

Little words

Dredge up vivid memories

Sharp teeth in a protruding snout

Massive jaws devouring prey

Reminder that you are small and isolated

Nothing next to the mammoth creature

Living only in your fear

Recollections morph and grow

Driven by a spore of contagion

Mention of a looming shadow

Far beneath the place you lie

Seeds have taken root

Hysteria rears its head

Shrieks fill the air

Tiny tendrils burst from their shells

Adrenaline pulses through her veins

Speed unrivaled as she races to safety

Terror blooms roaming freely

Induction now complete

Will must prevail or this shall rule her
827 · May 2014
Sinking Ship
I am myself May 2014
I am a boat
Rocking in the waves
I lost my anchor
Now I can't stay
I'm floating
But for how long
I'll crash into the rocks
To hear the siren song
As I sink to the bottom
I know for sure
There is no rising
Not for me
No more
818 · Jul 2013
Monster in me
I am myself Jul 2013
I look at this monster
One of your creation
Am I the only one
The lonely one
In this lonely nation

You bottled my sadness
Captured my tears in a glass
Held fears at bay
Brought a smile to my face
All my unhappiness had passed

Until that moment
My bliss had a limit
You stole my bar
And raised it
To beyond infinite

Before you I was a mess
I was pitiful
A runt in the litter
Unloved and insecure
Cast out and critical

Then you swooped me up
Never let me down
You cradled my hand
Warmed my heart
Your love was my angelic crown

I became soft
My hard shell melts
How was I to know
That you would send me
Straight to hell

It burns here now
Take me from this place
This pain kills me
I would die
If only I could feel your embrace

You take me to new highs
Send me crashing to new lows
So I love you from a distance
Safe and protected
In my cloak of shadows

You never fall out of love
But what I feel for you has changed
You abused my love
Tried to take yours back
So my feelings will never be the same

Cry for me
Lie to my face
Wither up and die without me
What I wanted you wouldn't give
So in this world I will find a new place
I am myself Feb 2015
Climb out of bed
skin glowing in the dim light
every dip and curve of you-
I want to caress with my tongue-

The bones that poke out
above the waist of your jeans
the trail of hair running from your navel
I want to press my lips in worship against your flesh

Your arms are a sin
muscles scream with definition
when your body
strains against mine

Perfectly perky plump posterior
my hands itch to grab it
just a touch
maybe… a bite

Your hair like night-
black and dense-
sensuous silk
curls as my fingers run through

*** is supposed to be a hidden thing
but everything about you screams it.
Who cares about society and its mandates
when you are a god in human form
804 · Feb 2012
Storm
I am myself Feb 2012
Rivulets running down the pane

Thunder clashes lightning strikes

Purple light fills the sky

No children dance in this violent gale

Rumbling fills the silence

The very air vibrates

Huddled in the dim light

Warm beneath the blankets

Damp from rain and swimming

Chills now long gone

She leaves

Once again left alone

Pounding on my makeshift roof

Trapped inside this cold down pour

How long can measly canvas hold

Pink flamingos on the ceiling

Cast a dull peachy glow

Tired from an early morning

Energy dissipates leaving exhaustion

Yawns stiffled, rubbing eyes

It has slowed to a drizzle

Soft music to my ears

Hypnotic in a way

Breathing begins to deepen

Tonight this is my lullaby

Slumber softly to the sound
787 · Feb 2012
Cursed
I am myself Feb 2012
Mesmerizing

The only word to describe your gaze

Magnetic

Your hold over me

Nothing is sacred

My secrets are known

Your powers abused

Emotions conflicting

Crashing in my chest

My heartbeat is deafening

Filling my ears with rushing pounding blood

Choices no longer my own

If ever they even were

Your oppression a cruel delight

Plucking my heart from my chest to add to your collection

When the piper calls the heart must answer

Lest it beats no more

No struggle, No fight

Freedom isn't an option

It is not even wanted

Games were never so enjoyable

Torture so desirable

Steal my soul for I have naught else

Though once offered it is no longer stealing

The spell you have over me

Too strong to be broken

A curse that is mine to bear for eternity
774 · Mar 2013
Nervous
I am myself Mar 2013
You lay there in silence
Twiddling your thumbs
Never tried to make a move
I doubted the time would ever come
That you would kiss my mouth
All moist and warm
And take me in your arms
The second part never happened
But boy was I kissed
That is one thing
I am so glad I didn't miss
771 · Feb 2012
Matching Oddball
I am myself Feb 2012
We are compatible
In a world of even numbers
You are a matching oddball
Maybe even mine
I'm not ready
To give you my heart
But somewhere you'll find
I'm missing a part
You've stolen a piece of me
Not of my flesh nor bone
That little tiny portion
Has crawled inside of you
It beckons to me
Behind my ribs my heart throbs
Ranging from dull ache
To searing pain
Only am I free
When you are near
Your voice eases my troubles
In time you will see
A piece of your heart
Is inside of me
Until then
I will refrain
From calling you
Silly pet names
Goodbye My matching Oddball
768 · Feb 2012
A Blood Sacrifice
I am myself Feb 2012
Go ahead

Devour the very thing that gives me life

Be warned the poison in your veins

Will not tolerate such an intrusion

Your blood is not so much a life force

As a force against my life

Drink in my essence

I offer it freely

It will be rejected though

Not by your senses

No they delight in it

Inhale it like gluttons

Drown yourself

My blood will fill you

Past the point of acceptance

Once rejection is no longer even an option

Then you will see

Pay the price

What I once offered as a gift

You abused and plundered

A ******* where you will drown

As you begin to drift

Finally the price is payed

Though my life is gone

Worth more than that is your death

When you succumb to deaths firm embrace

Think of me

Now I truly will see you in hell
768 · May 2012
I'm only slightly mocking
I am myself May 2012
Hair the color of ebony
So spiky and shiny
Falling across your face
Makes me long to displace it
The color you turn
Reminds me of sunburn
I prefer you making faces
To displaying social graces
Your eyes shine oh so bright
Filled with evil delight
Specially in a fight
Your voice is a melody
To my ears oh so lovely
I really love listening to you
Talk and tease the way you do
A perfect balance
Serious mixed with laughter
Something about you makes me happy
This started out a joke
But thinking of you
Makes me all gooey
Gah how'd you do this to me!
751 · Oct 2014
Toxicity
I am myself Oct 2014
Toxicity flooding my brain
Blurry, dizzy, drowsiness
Swimming in my brain
741 · Feb 2014
My Fault
I am myself Feb 2014
It's always me
My fault
I know it's not
Not really
Yet I apologize

You are the one
The one at fault
You apologize
But it's hollow
So I beg forgiveness

I did everything right
You took the good
And broke it
I lie alone
So so sorry

You are an addiction
And no matter what
I always come back
You hurt me
So I comfort you

You are the sun
I guess I am
Heliocentric
So when you are gone
I am left in darkness

I get so angry
Furious in fact
Torn to pieces
Yet I apologize
I'm sorry

Saddest thing?
I really mean it
I beg for forgiveness
For a crime that isn't mine
Pardon me

Forgive me
I am truly
So very sorry
Pardon my anger
Please don't leave me

I am irrevocably yours
Without you...
The world loses color
So I'll mend the tear
With an apology
717 · Dec 2013
Love me not
I am myself Dec 2013
Butterflies
With razor wings
Stitches stuffed
Exploding seams

Fragile heart
Beats so fast
You only knew
This wouldn't last

Lacey frilly
Lingerie
Torn apart
Night and day

Heart so full
About to burst
Every action
You rehearse

Want or love
Who can tell
Held under
Your magic spell

Rumpled sheets
Tear stained cases
A Lovers caress
Time erases

Ardently
Your taper shines
The problem is
Within your mind

Passion
Crashing
Falling
Bliss

Stolen heart
Given kiss
Then you left
You took my wish

Late nights
Early mornings
Heard my heart
Ignored its warnings

The love is gone
It's left for good
Pathetic liar
It's just a mood

Sick to death
Of all this fear
And pillows
Covered in tears

Seize the moment
Live for today
I wouldn't trade
One moment away

You love me
Or do you not
Doesn't matter
You are every thought
698 · Feb 2013
Why I am
I am myself Feb 2013
I'm clingy
I'm insecure
I flirt
My heart aches
What is it all for??
Is there a point
To all the effort that we make

Alone time
Wow.... I've got NONE of that
Yeah... My life
Is so alone
Save me?
I just need someone
Who will stand beside me
With hugs
And kisses
To comfort my fears
688 · Feb 2015
My third great love
I am myself Feb 2015
I like your skin.
The temperature is different
Than mine.
Warm

In you
I see
An extension
Of myself

A part of my being
In another form
Standing
Opposite me

I adore you
Every inch
And curve
Every thought

We are different
And the same
Equals
Shared spirits
675 · Aug 2013
Woman
I am myself Aug 2013
I am seductress
I am temptress
I am wild
Yet still a child

I am fire
I am ice
I am venom
And the antidote

I am sweet
I am innocent
I am young
But ageless and cruel

Kiss me
Caress me
Hold me tenderly
Oh I do like rough

Dominate me
Bend me
Break me
Now fall on your knees and obey

Pray to me
Worship me
Adore me
Pour out your scorn for me

I am woman
Confusing oh yes
I want something sweet
But that bores me

I am the moon
I hold its serenity
And the pull it has over the earth
I changed as the tides

I am woman
I am child
I am broken
I am alive
673 · Aug 2012
Apathy
I am myself Aug 2012
Apathy is a blight
It is walking between the worlds
Trapped in twilight
No black and no white
Only murky dull gray
A fog impenetrable
Made of tears from another time
Woven by happy songs that used to rhyme
You feel no love
Antipathy either
It comes creeping in
Like a spider
Broken jagged shards of glass
Floating in an empty space
Never colliding
Always trying
To reach out and sever the gray
You may wish to feel
More likely you won't care
Pain is a price you must pay
If you wish any other feeling
Don't bottle it up
The affects will leave you reeling
While the fog seeps out
Like jello congealing
672 · Jul 2012
Kk
I am myself Jul 2012
Kk
I've been told over and over
You are too young to love
Yet coerced into professing love for everyone around me
If I can feel love for all of these
A different sort of love isn't so far fetched
And if I can love
My heart can break
It can be bruised, battered, crushed and shattered
I am young
But my heart is ancient
It bleeds for the injuries given to loved ones
It doubts at every turn
I doubt myself
When against a challenge
I will admit to a great self esteem
But when I think that maybe you disagree
My fears return magnified a thousand fold
So long no one has neared my heart
Because of the agony I see inflicted on others
Even now I watch tears fall
Her heart crushed
The ache of it overwhelming
Bearing down
Inhibiting her breath
I am reminded
Of that exact torture
Caused so ruthlessly
Yet I would live it all over again to save her one tear
To take away this pain
My own fears drive me insane
Standing on the edge I will gladly dive in
If her wounds were to be healed
My own life is nothing
Just don't let her hurt anymore
It makes me burn with every vile emotion
So young
So innocent
This first broken heart as bad as every one to come
I know they will come
But she is my little sister
It should never happen
If only I could prevent it
That is what I was meant for
666 · Jan 2015
Yin and Yang
I am myself Jan 2015
Yin and yang
Masculine
Feminine
Opposites attract

But what if
The opposites are
Just two halves
Of a whole

Opposite magnetism
One being
I love you
Yang
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