Hi there, to my dearest anxiety...
I have a small request,
If you'll but hear me out,
I'd be ever so grateful...
You see when I awake, that itching feeling I get, yeah the one that makes me feel like the world is resting lethargically on my shoulders...
Yes! That same feeling that keeps me in bed 2hours after I've awoken contemplating whether this is finally the day my legs give in and break beneath the weight of it all...
Yeah, could you not do that today?
Also, if it's not too much to ask...
When I do finally get out of bed after hours of yeses said to empty maybes...
You know how when I have a happy thought you somehow find a way to show me just how impossible my happiness is by showing me every time I've been strung along by my pursuit for happiness only to be abandoned when I've been used for my worth...
Yeah, could you also not do that Today...
I know, I know, your probably thinking...
But why today?
What's so special about today?
Well, seeing as you asked...
Today, I woke up feeling worse than You've ever made me feel.
My knees are weak already and I haven't even stood up for the day...
So if you were to tempt me to play,
With a rope, a blade, or the pills that on my table lay...
I don't think I could resist going all the way...
I don't think I'd choose to live another day...
But!, and I can't believe I'm saying this...
I sure would miss you, my dearest anxiety. 🖤...
- An open letter to my Anxiety