I can’t say I love you yet,
But it’s been a long while
Since I felt like this last.

I wish you were here;
I wish I wasn’t alone.

I was broken beyond belief
My heart cracked and left for dead
It still quivers with the fear of helplessness

Gentle spirits of sunbeams
Put me back together again
Slowly, gently,
They called their friends,
And now I don’t have to be so alone.

I leapt somewhere new
Far from those shadows that once encased me
Now I wrap myself in feathers
And freedom is my strength.

I have ached.
I have been broken.
But I’m learning, once more
How to find joy in the gentle sunlight
In the dancing leaves, in the breeze
And in the smiles of others.

I hope my spirit will forgive
My absence.

She’s gone.

This room echoes
And it’s so much colder than before.
All my questions are written on the walls
They’ve gone entirely blank.

I have rubbed my own skin raw
Wondering where you’ve gone.

I don’t know if I’ll ever forget
The sight of your eyes in the fluorescents
Or the way your smile curves.

I know, I know,
The best things are made to end
I know that your fingers are only temporary
And yet I stumble, crumble, cling
And yet I make you my cornerstone
And yet I fill my lungs with your breath
And temper my gaze with yours.

And the truth is I know,
I’ve always known
That you’ll destroy me.

I know that your lips are devastation
And your eyes are disillusion
But if this is destruction
Then I am a ruin.

Perhaps it will fade my skin,
But for now,
I’ll bask in the sunlight of your attention.

What if
I’m not good enough?

It’s in my bones
It’s in my bones
It’s in my bones
Don’t apologize for it
Don’t blame yourself for it
Don’t think it’s your words
It’s my words
It’s my thoughts
It’s my truths
In my bones.